It’s been done. Better than you could ever imagine. No hateful words you can say to me … that’ve not already been said. See here. I know the dark night of the soul. The trembling self hatred of allowing someone to dominate and belittle the enigma that is me. Been to that show, front row seats, got the guitar pick to prove it in the form of abdominal scars received by “I do’s”.
Rest assured that I chose that; sure as I choose to
open my eyes in the morning. Not initially. But I knew.
On a subconscious, where God talks to me level, I sure
as shit knew better. This makes it my responsibility.
MY choices. Me, mine, my. This list is long:
- a life free of fear
- filled with joyous gratitude for EVERY experience
- maintaining focus on what’s really important
- acting and not knee jerking myself into asshat-ism
- practicing compassion in word and deed
- taking healthful risks and being “vulnerable”
- congruency (neat word look it up if ya don’t know)
- being my highest thought
(I could go on for days here … I believe you to be
smart people and you get the gist here)
POSITIVE energy. Like attracts like. The infinite Law
of Attraction. I sooo dig what I’m attracting these days.
It is a mirror for me. A gauge of sorts, if I choose
to have the eyes to see.
Today I choose differently. I “see”; am aware. No longer
in denial of my worth. No longer blinded by the bullshit
lies of others who are clogged with pain and despair. I
weep for those filled with this idea of scarcity. NOT
ENOUGH: love, life, money, hope, “stuff”, bullshit.
We are what we create. Create … an abundant you. Filled
with light and love. THAT is who you really are when it
comes down to the meat and red skins.
Living a life of abundance, manifesting joy and opportunity
is my new gig. No blaming others. In my innermost struggle;
the internal dichotomy is changing. Positive, beneficial
is being seen around every corner; even in what most view
as “bad”.
It’s all in how you frame it … spin it … view it …
embrace it … internalize … it. Can YOU differentiate
between the true and the false? Do YOU know your highest
self? I so want that for you. Come with me and let’s
do this dance of truth together. I got mad skills and
dancin is my “thang”. Foxtrot, waltz, crip walk, hustle,
pop and lock my ass. I’m a great partner and my dance card
needs filling. Let’s be real … together.
Yes, yes, yes, beautiful true and thoughtful…I’ll dance with you and all others that choose to live it like this.
I too am that kind of dancer. I have danced out of addiction and so, SO much loss. It’s time to fly!
From what I can recall, I have had a conversation very similar to this writing. I shall dance like no one is watching. But don’t forget the *curtsy* Amy!!
I too love to dance. The dance of today is much different than the dance of yesterday. Then, it wasn’t really a dance at all. It was a desperate crawl from one demoralizing moment to the next. Today, it’s a dance of freedom. It’s in the moment when the actualization of self is realized and performed. A true releasing of inhibitions that once kept me on lock down status. The freedom experienced in today’s dance is liberating and exciting. I choose to continue dancing even when the music stops, for it only stops momentarily, for as long as I choose it to. Look within the heart and the strings of life will always play a tune that I can dance to. Thank you for your lyrics of inspiration. Now, let us dance!
awesome message! thank you
I love to dance so much I got a degree in it….LMAO!! I love people so much I minored in Anthropology….now tell me I’m not an addicts wet dream. After a little over a year I am still trying to shimmy out from under the barrage of beat down I endured for 9 years. Most of the time it’s on me like quicksand molasses. Reading you gives me hope. Namaste.