so. yeah. i don’t have a regular blog post tonight. but i do have some poetry. i know … *groan*. but this? this is important to me. and long. and to any of you who have suffered abuse by the hand of someone who says “i love you” you’ll get this. addiction often lends itself [...]

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My god this is beautiful .  – first thought. How amazing is it to be able to fly? – first rhetorical question. My goodness we are so small. – first philosophical ideation. Yes. I am childlike. Yes, I like that about me.  Yes, I’m flying to see my guy and am excited as a pig [...]

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Overheard by ignoramus #1 (we’ll call him Henry Hillbilly) “Yeah my neighbor is one of them there drunks in that triple A thing. Always talkin’ bout them meetings and all that bunk. Man he doesn’t need them stupid brain washers.  All he needs is to grow a set. Like me. I drink all the time [...]

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As I’ve told you before … I’m a poet.  I have poet friends who drink poet coffee and are poets … in recovery.  They have made my life a beautiful word filled place.  All three gentlemen that I have asked to share their work, are amazingly talented and help to keep me sober everyday.  I’m [...]

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Now then. Type in the browser window up top … The decision making process. … go on. Do it. (in another tab though. don’t lose me now.)  You’ll probably see wiki wiki wiki -pedia and several (hundred) other pages on this subject. Link to link to link, down a rabbit hole, led me through Briggs [...]

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Yup. I’m goin there. Epic “no-no”, cause of arguments, discussions, eye brow raises and 13th step jokes. Down this slippery slope I go (pun absolutely intended).  So … you wanna go for coffee after the meeting? Best recovery pick up line EVER!!! New in recovery … or even not so new. Sex can be a [...]

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Sitting there today with my sponsor (she tolerates me) in the break room, laughing at inside jokes and whatnots about recovery.  Suddenly she punts the idea of taking the (12) steps or catchin’ the easy escalator.  This, per norm, made me think the rest of the day about such things (that sponsor of mine … [...]

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This was written by an amazing author and dear friend.  Sent by a simple email to me today … best gift I’ve received yet. Posted with his permission and grace.  Thank you Ron … I love you When my daughter Vikki was five years old and Christmas was coming I would tease her playfully. I [...]

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Feel. Real. Be the best you. Whether happy, sad, angry, lost.  Feel it to the core of who you are. Allow yourself the respect to be just where you are. Be gentle with you. Take care of your needs. Bubble baths, lay in bed, stay in your jammies all day.  Drink hot cocoa and gaze [...]

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Rewind. Back to before the mini’s were born. Before I said “I do.”  When I really had no idea how good I had it.  Age 29 and still unmarried.  A few major relationships up in flames.  Coming off chemo and a relationship devastated by my fiancee’s relapse.  Alone and lost but still makin’ it somehow. [...]

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