There are days when it seems that I am able to take off my “oh shit I’m selfish goggles” and can see things in a completely different way. Is this awareness? The product of hard work? I wish. If it were just about those two things then I’d have it made. I’m obsessive about inventories [...]

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Really? Thanksgiving. Yes. Stuff yourself til you sleep day. Remember how the Indians saved our asses then we took their land day. Don’t get me wrong … my gorgeous daughters dressing in pilgrim garb and saying a thankful prayer is omg-adorable.  I dig the cooking, the family-ish-ness, and all that. I do. My three perfectly [...]

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When it comes right down to it… Your level of transparency is directly correlated with how much you like and accept yourself. Being able to be open and honest and share who you really are is refreshing beyond belief. Gone are the days of shuckin’ and jivin’ to try not to trip over the lie [...]

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Ever hear the old addage … too much of a good thing … can make you heave ho or wet your knickers or well it just isn’t that good for you? Yeah. Sensory overload to the point of sitting there crying right alongside my crying children after an epically long vacation week. How about … [...]

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One of the biggest party nights of the year. Halloween. Well for me anyway… it was. It’s a good time to have sober people around. A good time to hang with the “winners”. Holidays can indeed be a trigger, especially when your traditions have included spiked cider and bobbing for DUI’s.  All dressed up and [...]

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I spoke at a meeting tonight. Not your regular average meeting (which I’ve done hundreds probably thousands of times), but an online webcam meeting. I was nervous because of the format… I cried a little –  okay a lot… and I was SO damn grateful to be able to share. It scared the hell out [...]

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Just when you think no one cares… you get a taste of what you’ve given back to the world. There is so much kindness to be found if you but have the eyes to see. (current status message on ITR… mine.)   That about sums it up. But I’ll expound anyway because it’s simply necessary. [...]

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I saw a man on Friday. A man that I have seen a dozen times a dozen times a dozen times. A man that always seemed to gravitate towards me and I wasn’t sure why. (Blonde hair and big… blue eyes may have had something to do with it. One can’t be sure.) This man [...]

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  I was an isolater (okay sometimes still am). A runner. A “get too close to me and I’mma run like hell” type of chick.  (yes. I am aware that I’m not unique. hmmph) A “lick my wounds alone because it’s not pretty” until I can regroup and write it out. I used to believe [...]

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    It’s National Recovery Month… huh? What does THAT mean exactly? Well according to SAMHSA (Substance Abuse And Mental Health Administration) it’s this… National Recovery Month (Recovery Month) is a national observance that educates Americans on the fact that addiction treatment and mental health services can enable those with a substance use or mental disorder to live a [...]

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