Sometimes we forget what it was like. To be new. To be really really sick. To be so riddled with self centered disease that we believe our own lies. It’s easy to forget really. When you’ve been in the rooms for a period of time so long it becomes second nature (this can come quickly [...]
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being is believing
There are days when it seems that I am able to take off my “oh shit I’m selfish goggles” and can see things in a completely different way. Is this awareness? The product of hard work? I wish. If it were just about those two things then I’d have it made. I’m obsessive about inventories [...]
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clearly.
When it comes right down to it… Your level of transparency is directly correlated with how much you like and accept yourself. Being able to be open and honest and share who you really are is refreshing beyond belief. Gone are the days of shuckin’ and jivin’ to try not to trip over the lie [...]
busy busy
This post is for the over-achievers and excessive “taskers”. If you don’t freak out if your house isn’t spotless or you’re entirely okay that you haven’t gotten all your christmas shopping done/wrapped/hidden or if you don’t do 10th step inventories about your 10th step inventories… then this doesn’t apply to you. If you’re completely okay [...]
gauging success
I’ve been thinking an awful lot lately about outcomes. Goals, dreams, aspirations, blah blah blah. About making a transition to writing for a living and how I’m going to do that and where is this going to lead and omg I have to succeed at this. I had an epiphany of sorts (although of the [...]
enough.
Ever hear the old addage … too much of a good thing … can make you heave ho or wet your knickers or well it just isn’t that good for you? Yeah. Sensory overload to the point of sitting there crying right alongside my crying children after an epically long vacation week. How about … [...]
Trick or … treat.
One of the biggest party nights of the year. Halloween. Well for me anyway… it was. It’s a good time to have sober people around. A good time to hang with the “winners”. Holidays can indeed be a trigger, especially when your traditions have included spiked cider and bobbing for DUI’s. All dressed up and [...]
why i cry and why i’m glad about it.
I spoke at a meeting tonight. Not your regular average meeting (which I’ve done hundreds probably thousands of times), but an online webcam meeting. I was nervous because of the format… I cried a little – okay a lot… and I was SO damn grateful to be able to share. It scared the hell out [...]
right or wrong?
Just when you think no one cares… you get a taste of what you’ve given back to the world. There is so much kindness to be found if you but have the eyes to see. (current status message on ITR… mine.) That about sums it up. But I’ll expound anyway because it’s simply necessary. [...]
Chaos.
I saw an interesting post on In The Rooms tonight from shay2524 that no one had responded to as of yet. This is my feeble attempt. Question: Please help me find out why,even if I am clean. I still crave chaos in my life. Good question. Seems that we as recovering people have been so used to the [...]
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