If you’ve ever been to an “anonymous type” meeting, you’ve probably heard about this strange word called acceptance.  Dictionary.com defines as “the act of taking or receiving something offered.  favorable reception; approval; favor. the act of assenting or believing.” At meetings all over the universe tonight, I imagine wise folks with many years [...]

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  I went to one of my old home group meetings last night. Cuyahoga Falls Sat. Night; a meeting that I went to rather regularly back in the day. Okay pretty much weekly for well over a decade. My bff/sponso Kat and a new friend Em (sup girls) were kind enough to go with me. [...]

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  It’s somewhat difficult to have a “Merry Christmas” … when you’re pissed off at the world.  Sometimes holidays are hard.  Ok ok ok … they can be difficult ALL the time.  Not enough money, not seeing your kids, not seeing anyone.  Throw staying sober/clean on top of it and WHAM BAM … could be [...]

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Sometimes we forget what it was like. To be new. To be really really sick. To be so riddled with self centered disease that we believe our own lies. It’s easy to forget really. When you’ve been in the rooms for a period of time so long it becomes second nature (this can come quickly [...]

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There are days when it seems that I am able to take off my “oh shit I’m selfish goggles” and can see things in a completely different way. Is this awareness? The product of hard work? I wish. If it were just about those two things then I’d have it made. I’m obsessive about inventories [...]

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I’ve been thinking an awful lot lately about outcomes. Goals, dreams, aspirations, blah blah blah.  About making a transition to writing for a living and how I’m going to do that and where is this going to lead and omg I have to succeed at this. I had an epiphany of sorts (although of the [...]

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Ever hear the old addage … too much of a good thing … can make you heave ho or wet your knickers or well it just isn’t that good for you? Yeah. Sensory overload to the point of sitting there crying right alongside my crying children after an epically long vacation week. How about … [...]

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One of the biggest party nights of the year. Halloween. Well for me anyway… it was. It’s a good time to have sober people around. A good time to hang with the “winners”. Holidays can indeed be a trigger, especially when your traditions have included spiked cider and bobbing for DUI’s.  All dressed up and [...]

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  I was an isolater (okay sometimes still am). A runner. A “get too close to me and I’mma run like hell” type of chick.  (yes. I am aware that I’m not unique. hmmph) A “lick my wounds alone because it’s not pretty” until I can regroup and write it out. I used to believe [...]

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    It’s National Recovery Month… huh? What does THAT mean exactly? Well according to SAMHSA (Substance Abuse And Mental Health Administration) it’s this… National Recovery Month (Recovery Month) is a national observance that educates Americans on the fact that addiction treatment and mental health services can enable those with a substance use or mental disorder to live a [...]

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