We all get into jumbled messes… in our heads especially. Step 10 (yes I know I talk about this one ALL the time… shushit) tells me that I am to examine MY behavior. Yes – everyday. Yes – I can’t look at you anymore and blame you for my ‘stuff’. That’s all well [...]

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    Are you cynical? Do you scoff at pollyana pigtails with her happy go lucky sappy overly positive crap that she pushes at everyone? Stay happy! Smile it gets better! YOU ARE A MIRACLE! I’m sooooooooo happy! I LOVE RECOVERY!!! (hey wait a minute I say that. shushit.) Well. ahem. I’m here to tell [...]

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So I’ve been working my ever loving arse off this week, seeing as I’m all bound up (in an abdominal binder post surgery) in the house not able to do much of anything at all. I’ve been utilizing this down time to make a fiscal shift; pretty much Google AdSense isn’t cutting the mustard (or the dough) [...]

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    Who exactly ARE these “winners” that everyone keeps talking about sticking with??? I mean really… how do you know who to talk to or whom you should run the hell away from? People can appear to be anything they choose …  at first. Appearances are deceiving and talk is a cheap 10 dollar [...]

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A bird doesn’t sing because it has an answer, it sings because it has a song. Lou Holtz I came across this quote tonight and it hit me like a brick house. Sometimes we get SO busy trying to do the ‘right’ things and have all the ‘answers’ that we forget. We forget to LIVE [...]

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  It is … what it is. Twisting and turning like the python in Pandora’s Box, life has a way of just “happening”.  It can happen TO us or we can be an active member of this late night R rated game show.  Put the kids to bed Ma … “life’s” on again.  Flip the [...]

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  So. We get sober/clean.  We go to meetings, get a sponsor, do stepwork … all the necessaries.  What now? How in the sam hell do I have FUN and not use?  All my receptor sites, gut level instincts, behaviors, and attitudes have focused on using for so long that fun seems to be a [...]

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I wanna dance with somebody. One moment in time. I will always love you…   Yeah. That voice. Those songs. That girl. The girl I grew up listening to, the one that bookmarked first kisses and high school dances and sleepovers and and and… yeah. Beautiful voice and face and could’ve had a beautiful life. [...]

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    If you’ve ever been to an “anonymous type” meeting, you’ve probably heard about this strange word called acceptance.  Dictionary.com defines as “the act of taking or receiving something offered.  favorable reception; approval; favor. the act of assenting or believing.” At meetings all over the universe tonight, I imagine wise folks with many years [...]

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  I went to one of my old home group meetings last night. Cuyahoga Falls Sat. Night; a meeting that I went to rather regularly back in the day. Okay pretty much weekly for well over a decade. My bff/sponso Kat and a new friend Em (sup girls) were kind enough to go with me. [...]

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