It’s somewhat difficult to have a “Merry Christmas” … when you’re pissed off at the world. Sometimes holidays are hard. Ok ok ok … they can be difficult ALL the time. Not enough money, not seeing your kids, not seeing anyone. Throw staying sober/clean on top of it and WHAM BAM … could be [...]
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helping?
Sometimes we forget what it was like. To be new. To be really really sick. To be so riddled with self centered disease that we believe our own lies. It’s easy to forget really. When you’ve been in the rooms for a period of time so long it becomes second nature (this can come quickly [...]
being is believing
There are days when it seems that I am able to take off my “oh shit I’m selfish goggles” and can see things in a completely different way. Is this awareness? The product of hard work? I wish. If it were just about those two things then I’d have it made. I’m obsessive about inventories [...]
gauging success
I’ve been thinking an awful lot lately about outcomes. Goals, dreams, aspirations, blah blah blah. About making a transition to writing for a living and how I’m going to do that and where is this going to lead and omg I have to succeed at this. I had an epiphany of sorts (although of the [...]
enough.
Ever hear the old addage … too much of a good thing … can make you heave ho or wet your knickers or well it just isn’t that good for you? Yeah. Sensory overload to the point of sitting there crying right alongside my crying children after an epically long vacation week. How about … [...]
Trick or … treat.
One of the biggest party nights of the year. Halloween. Well for me anyway… it was. It’s a good time to have sober people around. A good time to hang with the “winners”. Holidays can indeed be a trigger, especially when your traditions have included spiked cider and bobbing for DUI’s. All dressed up and [...]
weepy
I was an isolater (okay sometimes still am). A runner. A “get too close to me and I’mma run like hell” type of chick. (yes. I am aware that I’m not unique. hmmph) A “lick my wounds alone because it’s not pretty” until I can regroup and write it out. I used to believe [...]
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National Recovery Month???
It’s National Recovery Month… huh? What does THAT mean exactly? Well according to SAMHSA (Substance Abuse And Mental Health Administration) it’s this… National Recovery Month (Recovery Month) is a national observance that educates Americans on the fact that addiction treatment and mental health services can enable those with a substance use or mental disorder to live a [...]
screw up
Mistakes. We all make em. Part of the human condition. Funny how some folks seem to just gracefully pirouette right through a ‘screw up’ with dignity and no scars. I… am not one of those people. I am a person that has an 18 inch tube connecting my heart and head that is filled with [...]
de-’mean’
What do you do when you’re hurt? And not in the “some guy hollered at me in the store” or “I got cut off in traffic” or “my boss said I needed to improve”… sorta way. But when someone you’re close to… screws up. What if that person in your life (family, friend, ‘close’ person) [...]
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