Mistakes. We all make em. Part of the human condition. Funny how some folks seem to just gracefully pirouette right through a ‘screw up’ with dignity and no scars. I… am not one of those people. I am a person that has an 18 inch tube connecting my heart and head that is filled with [...]

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What do you do when you’re hurt? And not in the “some guy hollered at me in the store” or “I got cut off in traffic” or “my boss said I needed to improve”… sorta way. But when someone you’re close to… screws up.  What if that person in your life (family, friend, ‘close’ person) [...]

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The fact is that most alcoholics, for reasons yet obscure, have lost the power of choice in drink. Our so-called will power becomes practically nonexistent. My powerlessness over alcohol does not cease when I quit drinking. In sobriety I still have no choice—I can’t drink. The choice I do have is to pick up and [...]

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I was asked to speak at a meeting. Share my story. You know the experience, strength, hope thingy that’s part of our 12 step work. Yeah. It just so happened that on that night… I had a sick babygirl with a fever well over 100 degrees, I worked late, it was so hot any makeup [...]

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So I’ve been busy. Really really busy. So busy that getting three hours of sleep a night is a good night. Yeah. Balance is important. In every affair and no not the cheat on your spouse kind although that might be a good blog topic for another day. So I’m the new Editor-In-Chief of this [...]

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Sometimes the most stressful things can be … good? (whatever that word might mean to you) Think of a new job, moving up in the world, buying a house, getting married (ugh. kidding. sorta) dating again (double ugh. not kidding), et cetera et cetera. You see I’ve been used to chaos, drama, ‘bad’ stuff; so [...]

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I grew up watching Grease. Seen it hundreds and hundreds of times. I think … okay I know I had a mad crush on Kenickie.  Also known as Jeff Conway. I never could bring myself to watch celebrity rehab or any of that stuff. It felt wrong somehow to me. No offense Dr. Drew … [...]

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like         similar to; typical of; resembling. like-1     having the same form or characteristics like-2     to find pleasure in; enjoy. So. How exactly do you go from pretty much despising yourself … to actually liking the person you are enough to sit in your own skin? This one? [...]

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so. yeah. i don’t have a regular blog post tonight. but i do have some poetry. i know … *groan*. but this? this is important to me. and long. and to any of you who have suffered abuse by the hand of someone who says “i love you” you’ll get this. addiction often lends itself [...]

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My god this is beautiful .  – first thought. How amazing is it to be able to fly? – first rhetorical question. My goodness we are so small. – first philosophical ideation. Yes. I am childlike. Yes, I like that about me.  Yes, I’m flying to see my guy and am excited as a pig [...]

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