I’m sitting here watching the hurricane in awe of the tremendous force that is slamming down upon the east coast. It’s moving into even more (personally) uncomfortable territory now… as I have people I talk to daily – who I share every moment of my life with  - whom I love very much in Jersey, [...]

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So I’ve been busy. Really really busy. So busy that getting three hours of sleep a night is a good night. Yeah. Balance is important. In every affair and no not the cheat on your spouse kind although that might be a good blog topic for another day. So I’m the new Editor-In-Chief of this [...]

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I was talking with a friend at work yesterday. Per usual it was a good conversation filled with the real deal cream filling center of down and dirty. He looks at me and says oh so calmly… “When exactly do you think you’re going to learn to receive?” Ahem. Excuse me? What do you mean [...]

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I grew up watching Grease. Seen it hundreds and hundreds of times. I think … okay I know I had a mad crush on Kenickie.  Also known as Jeff Conway. I never could bring myself to watch celebrity rehab or any of that stuff. It felt wrong somehow to me. No offense Dr. Drew … [...]

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like         similar to; typical of; resembling. like-1     having the same form or characteristics like-2     to find pleasure in; enjoy. So. How exactly do you go from pretty much despising yourself … to actually liking the person you are enough to sit in your own skin? This one? [...]

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so. yeah. i don’t have a regular blog post tonight. but i do have some poetry. i know … *groan*. but this? this is important to me. and long. and to any of you who have suffered abuse by the hand of someone who says “i love you” you’ll get this. addiction often lends itself [...]

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Ego-maniac with an inferiority complex. Ever heard that? What do you think it means? Is it applicable to someone you know? Perhaps you? I dunno. Let’s find out. I can tell you I used to hang my hat on this more often than not, once upon a time. Oh yes. This is my memorex memory. [...]

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Changes. I got em. Big ones – little ones – ones that snicker and leer – ones that fill me with fear (omg I’m rhyming. OUT of poetry mode Amy. sheesh.) Anyway… even the “good” things can be scary. Being the upbeat – on the verge of annoying – happy girl that I am, I [...]

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Coping skills. We all have them. Gleaned from life experience they protect us (we think) from the outside stimuli battering at our psyche. How we deal with what life can throw at us … matters.  Some of these “skills” are faulty. Twisted into unhealthy behaviors that create more problems than they solve. Sometimes tools break [...]

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Ever heard the phrase, when we start using we stop growing emotionally.  So basically look at the age you first began using and that’s EMOTIONALLY where you’re starting from when you get sober/clean.  Scary eh? A bunch of teenagers trying to navigate the social world. Except that many teenagers have learned coping skills through the [...]

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