We all get into jumbled messes… in our heads especially. Step 10 (yes I know I talk about this one ALL the time… shushit) tells me that I am to examine MY behavior. Yes – everyday. Yes – I can’t look at you anymore and blame you for my ‘stuff’. That’s all well [...]

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    Who exactly ARE these “winners” that everyone keeps talking about sticking with??? I mean really… how do you know who to talk to or whom you should run the hell away from? People can appear to be anything they choose …  at first. Appearances are deceiving and talk is a cheap 10 dollar [...]

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A bird doesn’t sing because it has an answer, it sings because it has a song. Lou Holtz I came across this quote tonight and it hit me like a brick house. Sometimes we get SO busy trying to do the ‘right’ things and have all the ‘answers’ that we forget. We forget to LIVE [...]

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  It is … what it is. Twisting and turning like the python in Pandora’s Box, life has a way of just “happening”.  It can happen TO us or we can be an active member of this late night R rated game show.  Put the kids to bed Ma … “life’s” on again.  Flip the [...]

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  So. We get sober/clean.  We go to meetings, get a sponsor, do stepwork … all the necessaries.  What now? How in the sam hell do I have FUN and not use?  All my receptor sites, gut level instincts, behaviors, and attitudes have focused on using for so long that fun seems to be a [...]

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  I heard once at a meeting.  “I have eighteen inches from my heart to my head and right now it’s clogged with bullshit.” That was in the mid 90′s and I’ve never forgotten it.  Clogged with fear, desperation, self pity, anger, selfishness, and on and on and … on. (emphasis placed here if you [...]

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I’m going on a trip.   Ever play that game as a kid? You know the one where you list the things you’re taking from the alphabet and have to remember them all? Yeah. I’m playing that game right now in my head. Except it’s not a game. I’m sorting through the idea (which made [...]

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“People recite the first line of the serenity prayer and seem to sometimes forget that there is MORE than the first line.” ~ Kat W. (bff, sponso, and in my heart my sister)    We had a conversation yesterday. One of those random stolen moments in the work break room that I treasure so very [...]

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    If you’ve ever been to an “anonymous type” meeting, you’ve probably heard about this strange word called acceptance.  Dictionary.com defines as “the act of taking or receiving something offered.  favorable reception; approval; favor. the act of assenting or believing.” At meetings all over the universe tonight, I imagine wise folks with many years [...]

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  It’s so easy. So easy to get in that negative mind set when it “seems” as if everyone in the world is doing it. It being the backbiting, judgmental shuffle. The negative nelly wrapped in caustic crass. Seems like the world loves to kick someone when they’re down… as if it makes us feel [...]

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