The fact is that most alcoholics, for reasons yet obscure, have lost the power of choice in drink. Our so-called will power becomes practically nonexistent. My powerlessness over alcohol does not cease when I quit drinking. In sobriety I still have no choice—I can’t drink. The choice I do have is to pick up and [...]

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I was asked to speak at a meeting. Share my story. You know the experience, strength, hope thingy that’s part of our 12 step work. Yeah. It just so happened that on that night… I had a sick babygirl with a fever well over 100 degrees, I worked late, it was so hot any makeup [...]

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Sometimes the most stressful things can be … good? (whatever that word might mean to you) Think of a new job, moving up in the world, buying a house, getting married (ugh. kidding. sorta) dating again (double ugh. not kidding), et cetera et cetera. You see I’ve been used to chaos, drama, ‘bad’ stuff; so [...]

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Ever walked into a meeting and felt like you were home? How bout the opposite? Walked into a meeting and felt unwelcomed and like you didn’t belong? Like you walked right into the middle of Recovery Clique central? Now. I know what you’re gonna say … there are no strangers only friends we haven’t met yet. [...]

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Ever heard the phrase, when we start using we stop growing emotionally.  So basically look at the age you first began using and that’s EMOTIONALLY where you’re starting from when you get sober/clean.  Scary eh? A bunch of teenagers trying to navigate the social world. Except that many teenagers have learned coping skills through the [...]

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Joking around, the only way a truly sassy girl can do, one of my dear friends who happens to be a Judge (literally) commented on a member status or two.  I was engaged in a silly conversation about taking saucy pictures in a bathroom, when I was told about my ‘godlessness’. Now, I’m used to [...]

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Know on this day … That you are enough. You are a member of recovery filled with dignity and grace. You CAN succeed. There is only one you in this world … you are a brilliant spark. No matter what … you are going to be okay. You matter; your voice, your presence, your existence… [...]

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No-Major (whatever that means)-Decisions-In the first year.  Seems like a hundred fingers pointing shouting NO. Spouted wide and far by recovery types, this has been a bone of contention throughout Anonymous history.  Of course the two guys that started this whole show made serious amounts of major decisions. Including writing the big book, moving, taking [...]

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I’m dating. “In a relationship” according to my facebook profile page.  And I’m rather happy about that.  With whom? Well he’s amazing (gush gush swoon of course) AND in recovery. Sober/clean with all the sayings to go with. I love the idea of that.  Really I’ve only dated a few people outside of the rooms.  [...]

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As I’ve told you before … I’m a poet.  I have poet friends who drink poet coffee and are poets … in recovery.  They have made my life a beautiful word filled place.  All three gentlemen that I have asked to share their work, are amazingly talented and help to keep me sober everyday.  I’m [...]

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