We all get into jumbled messes… in our heads especially. Step 10 (yes I know I talk about this one ALL the time… shushit) tells me that I am to examine MY behavior. Yes – everyday. Yes – I can’t look at you anymore and blame you for my ‘stuff’. That’s all well [...]

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    Are you cynical? Do you scoff at pollyana pigtails with her happy go lucky sappy overly positive crap that she pushes at everyone? Stay happy! Smile it gets better! YOU ARE A MIRACLE! I’m sooooooooo happy! I LOVE RECOVERY!!! (hey wait a minute I say that. shushit.) Well. ahem. I’m here to tell [...]

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So I’ve been working my ever loving arse off this week, seeing as I’m all bound up (in an abdominal binder post surgery) in the house not able to do much of anything at all. I’ve been utilizing this down time to make a fiscal shift; pretty much Google AdSense isn’t cutting the mustard (or the dough) [...]

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A bird doesn’t sing because it has an answer, it sings because it has a song. Lou Holtz I came across this quote tonight and it hit me like a brick house. Sometimes we get SO busy trying to do the ‘right’ things and have all the ‘answers’ that we forget. We forget to LIVE [...]

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My head is a liar. Yeah yeah we know. All our heads lie to us. True. But as the Big Book says we ‘learn to differentiate the true from the false’. How? Well by step work of course. Doing daily inventories and all that razamatazz (see your sponsor for further reference i’m sure he/she will [...]

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  It is … what it is. Twisting and turning like the python in Pandora’s Box, life has a way of just “happening”.  It can happen TO us or we can be an active member of this late night R rated game show.  Put the kids to bed Ma … “life’s” on again.  Flip the [...]

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I wanna dance with somebody. One moment in time. I will always love you…   Yeah. That voice. Those songs. That girl. The girl I grew up listening to, the one that bookmarked first kisses and high school dances and sleepovers and and and… yeah. Beautiful voice and face and could’ve had a beautiful life. [...]

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  Upon mentioning to my lil’ ole bloggity blog here to some folks, I’m always asked “Do you really loooooove recovery?”  *snicker*  Of course this gives folks a reason to tease me; always epic fun. However it brings up a good point. Do I really love recovery and what the hell does that mean anyhow? [...]

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I’m going on a trip.   Ever play that game as a kid? You know the one where you list the things you’re taking from the alphabet and have to remember them all? Yeah. I’m playing that game right now in my head. Except it’s not a game. I’m sorting through the idea (which made [...]

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“People recite the first line of the serenity prayer and seem to sometimes forget that there is MORE than the first line.” ~ Kat W. (bff, sponso, and in my heart my sister)    We had a conversation yesterday. One of those random stolen moments in the work break room that I treasure so very [...]

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