There are days when it seems that I am able to take off my “oh shit I’m selfish goggles” and can see things in a completely different way. Is this awareness? The product of hard work? I wish. If it were just about those two things then I’d have it made. I’m obsessive about inventories [...]

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This post is for the over-achievers and excessive “taskers”. If you don’t freak out if your house isn’t spotless or you’re entirely okay that you haven’t gotten all your christmas shopping done/wrapped/hidden or if you don’t do 10th step inventories about your 10th step inventories… then this doesn’t apply to you. If you’re completely okay [...]

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I’ve been thinking an awful lot lately about outcomes. Goals, dreams, aspirations, blah blah blah.  About making a transition to writing for a living and how I’m going to do that and where is this going to lead and omg I have to succeed at this. I had an epiphany of sorts (although of the [...]

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One of the biggest party nights of the year. Halloween. Well for me anyway… it was. It’s a good time to have sober people around. A good time to hang with the “winners”. Holidays can indeed be a trigger, especially when your traditions have included spiked cider and bobbing for DUI’s.  All dressed up and [...]

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I spoke at a meeting tonight. Not your regular average meeting (which I’ve done hundreds probably thousands of times), but an online webcam meeting. I was nervous because of the format… I cried a little –  okay a lot… and I was SO damn grateful to be able to share. It scared the hell out [...]

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Just when you think no one cares… you get a taste of what you’ve given back to the world. There is so much kindness to be found if you but have the eyes to see. (current status message on ITR… mine.)   That about sums it up. But I’ll expound anyway because it’s simply necessary. [...]

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I saw an interesting post on In The Rooms tonight from shay2524 that no one had responded to as of yet. This is my feeble attempt. Question: Please help me find out why,even if I am clean. I still crave chaos in my life. Good question. Seems that we as recovering people have been so used to the [...]

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I saw a man on Friday. A man that I have seen a dozen times a dozen times a dozen times. A man that always seemed to gravitate towards me and I wasn’t sure why. (Blonde hair and big… blue eyes may have had something to do with it. One can’t be sure.) This man [...]

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  I was an isolater (okay sometimes still am). A runner. A “get too close to me and I’mma run like hell” type of chick.  (yes. I am aware that I’m not unique. hmmph) A “lick my wounds alone because it’s not pretty” until I can regroup and write it out. I used to believe [...]

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    It’s National Recovery Month… huh? What does THAT mean exactly? Well according to SAMHSA (Substance Abuse And Mental Health Administration) it’s this… National Recovery Month (Recovery Month) is a national observance that educates Americans on the fact that addiction treatment and mental health services can enable those with a substance use or mental disorder to live a [...]

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