We in the recovery world talk an awful lot about the progression of the disease. The fall into sickness. The doom and gloom of “what it was like and what happened”.  More often than not, in the thousands of meetings I’ve been to in my recovery lifetime, most ‘leads’ or speaker meetings focus an awful [...]

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I. Write. It’s what I do. My “thing”. My outlet. My fingers bleed ink. Now and again I write something that expresses the struggle of challenging my addictive mind.  This is called … sanctum. spherical magic swirling profundity perception essence clouded clarifier edification necessity blurred messages internally abound blocking sparkling incandescence. elusive contentment self stimulated [...]

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I’ve been gone for a bit, busy with merrymaking and holidays and all that a sober recovery filled season can bring. You know Santa Claus and ho ho ho and festivities with families and being up at 4 AM christmas morning with excited mini ninjas jumping on the bed yelling “CWISTMAS CWISTMAS!!!” *ahem*  Yes. That [...]

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I went to a meeting last night. I needed a meeting. It’s been a long time since I’ve felt that I “needed” a meeting.  Working hard to not get to that point has been a long time goal of mine. To achieve balance and an even keel mixture of recovery, support, family time, AA time, [...]

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I saw an epic quote the other day. Of course I can’t remember it verbatim but the gist was something like this… We’re always waiting for the next big thing to happen or to ‘get over’ whatever problem we’re having now.  Thinking that when ‘this or that’ happens life will really take off. What we [...]

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I feel like a broken record sometimes. Same stuff. Same or similar things. But damn. We NEED … okay ‘scratch‘ that … I NEED … repetition.  The ovah and ovah and ovah of it all. I don’t inundate this blog too awful much with stepwork stuff, that’s what you have sponsors for and meetings to [...]

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No-Major (whatever that means)-Decisions-In the first year.  Seems like a hundred fingers pointing shouting NO. Spouted wide and far by recovery types, this has been a bone of contention throughout Anonymous history.  Of course the two guys that started this whole show made serious amounts of major decisions. Including writing the big book, moving, taking [...]

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I am a hypocrite. Hyper criticisms schism over the toll bridge of me.  Totally okay for you – to be you. Not for me. You can be vulnerable and sad and however else you need to feel. Not I. Nope. I must be strong and have it all together. Always. In all ways. When you [...]

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Let go and let God.  (whatever your conception of that may be of course) I prefer to keep the G sound out of the equation. let OD (implied second D). It fits me. But when talking of the more healthful, rational members of our worldwide recovery family, bring on the G. What does letting go [...]

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I had some free time (which almost NEVER happens these days) so I played around at In The Rooms for a bit late night.  Hopped into the chat room, knew hardly anyone which is awesome. I love being the new person.  I do. I know I’m weird. Totally dig the feeling of meeting people, introductions [...]

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