Sometimes we fall down and can’t get back up We’re hiding behind skin that’s too tough How come we don’t say I love you enough Till it’s to late, it’s not too late Our hearts are hungry for a food that won’t come We could make a feast from these crumbs And we’re all staring [...]

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“you have received a gift certificate from Buy.com  Personal Message from Anonymous: Yes, there will be Mommy presents” Shock, awe, tears streaming; leaving gray marks from excessive eyeliner on my pink cheeks. Anonymous showed me something tonight. Something huge, something sweet and pure. Giving with no expectations. HUGE.Allowing someone the gift of receiving. Even HUGER. [...]

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This was posted a long time ago on In The Rooms … as I sit here typing my children are finally going to be safe from having to visit a place that’s NOT good for them. I am overflowing with gratitude. Recovery has given this gift to me.  So in honor of having the effin [...]

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It’s been done. Better than you could ever imagine. No hateful words you can say to me … that’ve not already been said. See here. I know the dark night of the soul. The trembling self hatred of allowing someone to dominate and belittle the enigma that is me. Been to that show, front row [...]

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Feel. Real. Be the best you. Whether happy, sad, angry, lost.  Feel it to the core of who you are. Allow yourself the respect to be just where you are. Be gentle with you. Take care of your needs. Bubble baths, lay in bed, stay in your jammies all day.  Drink hot cocoa and gaze [...]

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Rewind. Back to before the mini’s were born. Before I said “I do.”  When I really had no idea how good I had it.  Age 29 and still unmarried.  A few major relationships up in flames.  Coming off chemo and a relationship devastated by my fiancee’s relapse.  Alone and lost but still makin’ it somehow. [...]

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