As it tells us in our literature (you know the Big blue Book… at least for this drunk it’s my textbook), namely the Doctor’s opinion, we “cannot differentiate the true from the false”. huh? okay I’ll let Dr. Silkworth explain this since he did such a fabulous job doing so.  Linkage:  . http://www.aa.org/bigbookonline/en_doctoropinion.cfm Men and women [...]

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Sometimes we forget what it was like. To be new. To be really really sick. To be so riddled with self centered disease that we believe our own lies. It’s easy to forget really. When you’ve been in the rooms for a period of time so long it becomes second nature (this can come quickly [...]

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I spoke at a meeting tonight. Not your regular average meeting (which I’ve done hundreds probably thousands of times), but an online webcam meeting. I was nervous because of the format… I cried a little –  okay a lot… and I was SO damn grateful to be able to share. It scared the hell out [...]

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I saw an interesting post on In The Rooms tonight from shay2524 that no one had responded to as of yet. This is my feeble attempt. Question: Please help me find out why,even if I am clean. I still crave chaos in my life. Good question. Seems that we as recovering people have been so used to the [...]

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I saw a man on Friday. A man that I have seen a dozen times a dozen times a dozen times. A man that always seemed to gravitate towards me and I wasn’t sure why. (Blonde hair and big… blue eyes may have had something to do with it. One can’t be sure.) This man [...]

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  I was an isolater (okay sometimes still am). A runner. A “get too close to me and I’mma run like hell” type of chick.  (yes. I am aware that I’m not unique. hmmph) A “lick my wounds alone because it’s not pretty” until I can regroup and write it out. I used to believe [...]

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    It’s National Recovery Month… huh? What does THAT mean exactly? Well according to SAMHSA (Substance Abuse And Mental Health Administration) it’s this… National Recovery Month (Recovery Month) is a national observance that educates Americans on the fact that addiction treatment and mental health services can enable those with a substance use or mental disorder to live a [...]

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It’s more of who you ARE (on the inside) than what you DO on the outside… that people will remember. Think differently than the rest… you are an original. Sheep-ism is so last week. Know that no matter what… you are valuable. There is a learning curve, you do NOT have to be all things [...]

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What do you do when you’re hurt? And not in the “some guy hollered at me in the store” or “I got cut off in traffic” or “my boss said I needed to improve”… sorta way. But when someone you’re close to… screws up.  What if that person in your life (family, friend, ‘close’ person) [...]

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Shock and awe. No not an undercover ops mission but my reaction to the information my eyes are absorbing from this computer screen. Riots. Ones that make you shiver and shake. Ones that make you cringe and wonder how a human being could do such a thing? The mob mentality. One starts the brawl and [...]

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