I was asked to speak at a meeting. Share my story. You know the experience, strength, hope thingy that’s part of our 12 step work. Yeah. It just so happened that on that night… I had a sick babygirl with a fever well over 100 degrees, I worked late, it was so hot any makeup [...]

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So I’ve been busy. Really really busy. So busy that getting three hours of sleep a night is a good night. Yeah. Balance is important. In every affair and no not the cheat on your spouse kind although that might be a good blog topic for another day. So I’m the new Editor-In-Chief of this [...]

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I see all these folks writing about “happy”. That recovery is this sugarcoated plastic smiled “O.M.G” malarky. That’s not been my experience. Not even a little. Sure I’m a basically happy person, but I’m also sad and melancholy and afraid and hopeful and angry and and and … I believe the definition we’re looking for [...]

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Sometimes the most stressful things can be … good? (whatever that word might mean to you) Think of a new job, moving up in the world, buying a house, getting married (ugh. kidding. sorta) dating again (double ugh. not kidding), et cetera et cetera. You see I’ve been used to chaos, drama, ‘bad’ stuff; so [...]

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I’ve been going to Founders Day in Akron Ohio since 1992 (take away four years due to marriage-from-hell-ism and a six month relapse after 15 years sober. bleck). Every year I get uber nostalgic, because I’ve had the privilege to grow up in AA. Getting sober at 19, I literally learned how to live and [...]

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I was talking with a friend at work yesterday. Per usual it was a good conversation filled with the real deal cream filling center of down and dirty. He looks at me and says oh so calmly… “When exactly do you think you’re going to learn to receive?” Ahem. Excuse me? What do you mean [...]

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Ever walked into a meeting and felt like you were home? How bout the opposite? Walked into a meeting and felt unwelcomed and like you didn’t belong? Like you walked right into the middle of Recovery Clique central? Now. I know what you’re gonna say … there are no strangers only friends we haven’t met yet. [...]

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so. yeah. i don’t have a regular blog post tonight. but i do have some poetry. i know … *groan*. but this? this is important to me. and long. and to any of you who have suffered abuse by the hand of someone who says “i love you” you’ll get this. addiction often lends itself [...]

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I am an absolute crying mess. Sometimes the right thing to do hurts like hell. Okay most times it does. This just may be the hardest blog I have ever written. And if you’re opposed to mushy, sappy, sad, self disclosure … stop reading right now. Because I’m a little bit a lot broken at [...]

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How you believe in you makes all the difference.  When no one else in the world gives a rats patoot, what message you hear in that noggin of yours … is everything.  Truly, others can give you happy backstrokes of positive, but it means absolutely nothing if you don’t buy it on some level. Subliminal [...]

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