As it tells us in our literature (you know the Big blue Book… at least for this drunk it’s my textbook), namely the Doctor’s opinion, we “cannot differentiate the true from the false”. huh? okay I’ll let Dr. Silkworth explain this since he did such a fabulous job doing so.  Linkage:  . http://www.aa.org/bigbookonline/en_doctoropinion.cfm Men and women [...]

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Sometimes we forget what it was like. To be new. To be really really sick. To be so riddled with self centered disease that we believe our own lies. It’s easy to forget really. When you’ve been in the rooms for a period of time so long it becomes second nature (this can come quickly [...]

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I saw a man on Friday. A man that I have seen a dozen times a dozen times a dozen times. A man that always seemed to gravitate towards me and I wasn’t sure why. (Blonde hair and big… blue eyes may have had something to do with it. One can’t be sure.) This man [...]

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  I was an isolater (okay sometimes still am). A runner. A “get too close to me and I’mma run like hell” type of chick.  (yes. I am aware that I’m not unique. hmmph) A “lick my wounds alone because it’s not pretty” until I can regroup and write it out. I used to believe [...]

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    It’s National Recovery Month… huh? What does THAT mean exactly? Well according to SAMHSA (Substance Abuse And Mental Health Administration) it’s this… National Recovery Month (Recovery Month) is a national observance that educates Americans on the fact that addiction treatment and mental health services can enable those with a substance use or mental disorder to live a [...]

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Shock and awe. No not an undercover ops mission but my reaction to the information my eyes are absorbing from this computer screen. Riots. Ones that make you shiver and shake. Ones that make you cringe and wonder how a human being could do such a thing? The mob mentality. One starts the brawl and [...]

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I see all these folks writing about “happy”. That recovery is this sugarcoated plastic smiled “O.M.G” malarky. That’s not been my experience. Not even a little. Sure I’m a basically happy person, but I’m also sad and melancholy and afraid and hopeful and angry and and and … I believe the definition we’re looking for [...]

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I’m in heaven. Walking around my old college campus (yes i graduated from Akron U.) which is now filled with thousands and thousands (and yes thousands) of drunks; laughing, crying, hugging, sharing, LIVING … Founders Day style. Talk about being surrounded with God-consciousness, or if you prefer a power greater.  Puts life’s little petty issues [...]

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I was talking with a friend at work yesterday. Per usual it was a good conversation filled with the real deal cream filling center of down and dirty. He looks at me and says oh so calmly… “When exactly do you think you’re going to learn to receive?” Ahem. Excuse me? What do you mean [...]

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Ever walked into a meeting and felt like you were home? How bout the opposite? Walked into a meeting and felt unwelcomed and like you didn’t belong? Like you walked right into the middle of Recovery Clique central? Now. I know what you’re gonna say … there are no strangers only friends we haven’t met yet. [...]

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