Who exactly ARE these “winners” that everyone keeps talking about sticking with??? I mean really… how do you know who to talk to or whom you should run the hell away from? People can appear to be anything they choose …  at first. Appearances are deceiving and talk is a cheap 10 dollar [...]

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  It is … what it is. Twisting and turning like the python in Pandora’s Box, life has a way of just “happening”.  It can happen TO us or we can be an active member of this late night R rated game show.  Put the kids to bed Ma … “life’s” on again.  Flip the [...]

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  So. We get sober/clean.  We go to meetings, get a sponsor, do stepwork … all the necessaries.  What now? How in the sam hell do I have FUN and not use?  All my receptor sites, gut level instincts, behaviors, and attitudes have focused on using for so long that fun seems to be a [...]

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I’m going on a trip.   Ever play that game as a kid? You know the one where you list the things you’re taking from the alphabet and have to remember them all? Yeah. I’m playing that game right now in my head. Except it’s not a game. I’m sorting through the idea (which made [...]

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    If you’ve ever been to an “anonymous type” meeting, you’ve probably heard about this strange word called acceptance.  Dictionary.com defines as “the act of taking or receiving something offered.  favorable reception; approval; favor. the act of assenting or believing.” At meetings all over the universe tonight, I imagine wise folks with many years [...]

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Sometimes we forget what it was like. To be new. To be really really sick. To be so riddled with self centered disease that we believe our own lies. It’s easy to forget really. When you’ve been in the rooms for a period of time so long it becomes second nature (this can come quickly [...]

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I spoke at a meeting tonight. Not your regular average meeting (which I’ve done hundreds probably thousands of times), but an online webcam meeting. I was nervous because of the format… I cried a little –  okay a lot… and I was SO damn grateful to be able to share. It scared the hell out [...]

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I saw an interesting post on In The Rooms tonight from shay2524 that no one had responded to as of yet. This is my feeble attempt. Question: Please help me find out why,even if I am clean. I still crave chaos in my life. Good question. Seems that we as recovering people have been so used to the [...]

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I was asked to speak at a meeting. Share my story. You know the experience, strength, hope thingy that’s part of our 12 step work. Yeah. It just so happened that on that night… I had a sick babygirl with a fever well over 100 degrees, I worked late, it was so hot any makeup [...]

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Sometimes the most stressful things can be … good? (whatever that word might mean to you) Think of a new job, moving up in the world, buying a house, getting married (ugh. kidding. sorta) dating again (double ugh. not kidding), et cetera et cetera. You see I’ve been used to chaos, drama, ‘bad’ stuff; so [...]

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