How do you know when you’ve swung too far the other way? When you’re so afraid of screwing up that you’re paralyzed? Why am I being all questiony? Well because it seems in certain areas, I’ve swung to the other side with a thudding smack on the wall. When people step on our toes, is [...]

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I grew up watching Grease. Seen it hundreds and hundreds of times. I think … okay I know I had a mad crush on Kenickie.  Also known as Jeff Conway. I never could bring myself to watch celebrity rehab or any of that stuff. It felt wrong somehow to me. No offense Dr. Drew … [...]

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Ever walked into a meeting and felt like you were home? How bout the opposite? Walked into a meeting and felt unwelcomed and like you didn’t belong? Like you walked right into the middle of Recovery Clique central? Now. I know what you’re gonna say … there are no strangers only friends we haven’t met yet. [...]

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so. yeah. i don’t have a regular blog post tonight. but i do have some poetry. i know … *groan*. but this? this is important to me. and long. and to any of you who have suffered abuse by the hand of someone who says “i love you” you’ll get this. addiction often lends itself [...]

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Hard for me to say I’m sorry … and no I’m not talking Peter Cetera in the cheesy 80′s Chicago years. What is I’m sorry anyway? Is it an amends. I’m famous for saying “no sorries necessary”. But am I being a bit too hasty? Step nine tells me that to make amends means more [...]

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Coping skills. We all have them. Gleaned from life experience they protect us (we think) from the outside stimuli battering at our psyche. How we deal with what life can throw at us … matters.  Some of these “skills” are faulty. Twisted into unhealthy behaviors that create more problems than they solve. Sometimes tools break [...]

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Yeah. Overused topic. But with a twist. Any given night you can be sure that the topic of any 12 step meeting could very well be “gratitude”.  What are you grateful for? blah blah. Now I’m not mocking … for once. This is important. I’ve been to a few meetings on this topic. More like [...]

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Had probably one of the best comments/compliments/heckles of my life today.  And that’s saying something. I’ve lived a lotta life in thirty some years. “You are so bright and happy, even at work. Are you always like this or is there something wrong with you?” To which, of course, I replied… A little of both. [...]

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Joking around, the only way a truly sassy girl can do, one of my dear friends who happens to be a Judge (literally) commented on a member status or two.  I was engaged in a silly conversation about taking saucy pictures in a bathroom, when I was told about my ‘godlessness’. Now, I’m used to [...]

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It’s that time of year again. And yes I’ve had tons of emails on the subject of the ‘wintertime blues’ or ‘S.A.D (seasonal affective disorder)’ or just plain out tired of it being cold and dark and not being able to go outside and play or feel the warm sun on my face and I [...]

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