I’m going on a trip.   Ever play that game as a kid? You know the one where you list the things you’re taking from the alphabet and have to remember them all? Yeah. I’m playing that game right now in my head. Except it’s not a game. I’m sorting through the idea (which made [...]

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    If you’ve ever been to an “anonymous type” meeting, you’ve probably heard about this strange word called acceptance.  Dictionary.com defines as “the act of taking or receiving something offered.  favorable reception; approval; favor. the act of assenting or believing.” At meetings all over the universe tonight, I imagine wise folks with many years [...]

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Sometimes we forget what it was like. To be new. To be really really sick. To be so riddled with self centered disease that we believe our own lies. It’s easy to forget really. When you’ve been in the rooms for a period of time so long it becomes second nature (this can come quickly [...]

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I spoke at a meeting tonight. Not your regular average meeting (which I’ve done hundreds probably thousands of times), but an online webcam meeting. I was nervous because of the format… I cried a little –  okay a lot… and I was SO damn grateful to be able to share. It scared the hell out [...]

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Sometimes the most stressful things can be … good? (whatever that word might mean to you) Think of a new job, moving up in the world, buying a house, getting married (ugh. kidding. sorta) dating again (double ugh. not kidding), et cetera et cetera. You see I’ve been used to chaos, drama, ‘bad’ stuff; so [...]

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I’m in heaven. Walking around my old college campus (yes i graduated from Akron U.) which is now filled with thousands and thousands (and yes thousands) of drunks; laughing, crying, hugging, sharing, LIVING … Founders Day style. Talk about being surrounded with God-consciousness, or if you prefer a power greater.  Puts life’s little petty issues [...]

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I’ve been going to Founders Day in Akron Ohio since 1992 (take away four years due to marriage-from-hell-ism and a six month relapse after 15 years sober. bleck). Every year I get uber nostalgic, because I’ve had the privilege to grow up in AA. Getting sober at 19, I literally learned how to live and [...]

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I was talking with a friend at work yesterday. Per usual it was a good conversation filled with the real deal cream filling center of down and dirty. He looks at me and says oh so calmly… “When exactly do you think you’re going to learn to receive?” Ahem. Excuse me? What do you mean [...]

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Hard for me to say I’m sorry … and no I’m not talking Peter Cetera in the cheesy 80′s Chicago years. What is I’m sorry anyway? Is it an amends. I’m famous for saying “no sorries necessary”. But am I being a bit too hasty? Step nine tells me that to make amends means more [...]

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Yeah. Overused topic. But with a twist. Any given night you can be sure that the topic of any 12 step meeting could very well be “gratitude”.  What are you grateful for? blah blah. Now I’m not mocking … for once. This is important. I’ve been to a few meetings on this topic. More like [...]

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