Sitting there today with my sponsor (she tolerates me) in the break room, laughing at inside jokes and whatnots about recovery.  Suddenly she punts the idea of taking the (12) steps or catchin’ the easy escalator.  This, per norm, made me think the rest of the day about such things (that sponsor of mine … [...]

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Let us share in the joy of the season. Holidays can be very hard (if we choose them to be).  Let’s stay in the hope that can come from the smallest of joys.  I’ve had several folks I know share such stories after reading my post on the holidays.  One dear friend made me cry [...]

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Sometimes we fall down and can’t get back up We’re hiding behind skin that’s too tough How come we don’t say I love you enough Till it’s to late, it’s not too late Our hearts are hungry for a food that won’t come We could make a feast from these crumbs And we’re all staring [...]

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“you have received a gift certificate from Buy.com  Personal Message from Anonymous: Yes, there will be Mommy presents” Shock, awe, tears streaming; leaving gray marks from excessive eyeliner on my pink cheeks. Anonymous showed me something tonight. Something huge, something sweet and pure. Giving with no expectations. HUGE.Allowing someone the gift of receiving. Even HUGER. [...]

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A year ago exactly on THIS very night … I ducked. Barely missed being beaned by a hefty coffee mug. Cops called. The bitter dregs of the mashed up putrid marriage, thrown in the trash. Barely six months sober, recovering skin still pink and raw from amniotic fluid flowing out of the womb of early [...]

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Rewind. Back to before the mini’s were born. Before I said “I do.”  When I really had no idea how good I had it.  Age 29 and still unmarried.  A few major relationships up in flames.  Coming off chemo and a relationship devastated by my fiancee’s relapse.  Alone and lost but still makin’ it somehow. [...]

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