Ever heard the phrase, when we start using we stop growing emotionally.  So basically look at the age you first began using and that’s EMOTIONALLY where you’re starting from when you get sober/clean.  Scary eh? A bunch of teenagers trying to navigate the social world. Except that many teenagers have learned coping skills through the [...]

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Had probably one of the best comments/compliments/heckles of my life today.  And that’s saying something. I’ve lived a lotta life in thirty some years. “You are so bright and happy, even at work. Are you always like this or is there something wrong with you?” To which, of course, I replied… A little of both. [...]

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Overheard by ignoramus #1 (we’ll call him Henry Hillbilly) “Yeah my neighbor is one of them there drunks in that triple A thing. Always talkin’ bout them meetings and all that bunk. Man he doesn’t need them stupid brain washers.  All he needs is to grow a set. Like me. I drink all the time [...]

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Sometimes … we need to take a break. Especially and most importantly, when we’re in a sick thinking mindset.  Taking a short bit of time to breathe and find out what the hell is going on with ya badself … is epically important. Yes I used epic. Yes. It fits. In the fast pace of [...]

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It’s that time of year again. And yes I’ve had tons of emails on the subject of the ‘wintertime blues’ or ‘S.A.D (seasonal affective disorder)’ or just plain out tired of it being cold and dark and not being able to go outside and play or feel the warm sun on my face and I [...]

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Yesterday was an odd day. I was going to write about a slogan or something ‘rote’ straight from the recovery toolbag, but as usual I need to write about the things that are happening right now.  I mean that’s what recovery is about yes? Learning to be clean/sober and most of all ‘right minded’ through [...]

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I don’t let people in. I don’t like women/men. Women are bitches/Only men understand me. Men aren’t emotional enough/Only women understand me. All my friends are of the opposite sex. They just ‘get’ me better. I don’t trust… not even a little bit. I’ve written about this topic at least a hundred different ways but [...]

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Like most people, I tend to stick with what I know.  What I’ve experienced. What is comfortable.  Even if it doesn’t look comfortable from the outside.  Matter of fact sometimes our lives (my life) can look like one big case study in psychosis based on past history. But it’s SAFE.  To me anyway. Been down [...]

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Know on this day … That you are enough. You are a member of recovery filled with dignity and grace. You CAN succeed. There is only one you in this world … you are a brilliant spark. No matter what … you are going to be okay. You matter; your voice, your presence, your existence… [...]

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I. Write. It’s what I do. My “thing”. My outlet. My fingers bleed ink. Now and again I write something that expresses the struggle of challenging my addictive mind.  This is called … sanctum. spherical magic swirling profundity perception essence clouded clarifier edification necessity blurred messages internally abound blocking sparkling incandescence. elusive contentment self stimulated [...]

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