Who exactly ARE these “winners” that everyone keeps talking about sticking with??? I mean really… how do you know who to talk to or whom you should run the hell away from? People can appear to be anything they choose …  at first. Appearances are deceiving and talk is a cheap 10 dollar [...]

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  It is … what it is. Twisting and turning like the python in Pandora’s Box, life has a way of just “happening”.  It can happen TO us or we can be an active member of this late night R rated game show.  Put the kids to bed Ma … “life’s” on again.  Flip the [...]

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  So. We get sober/clean.  We go to meetings, get a sponsor, do stepwork … all the necessaries.  What now? How in the sam hell do I have FUN and not use?  All my receptor sites, gut level instincts, behaviors, and attitudes have focused on using for so long that fun seems to be a [...]

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    If you’ve ever been to an “anonymous type” meeting, you’ve probably heard about this strange word called acceptance.  Dictionary.com defines as “the act of taking or receiving something offered.  favorable reception; approval; favor. the act of assenting or believing.” At meetings all over the universe tonight, I imagine wise folks with many years [...]

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New year. New beginnings. New chances to be me.  Explore things I never thought possible. Love, life, and everything in between. I have a love story in me that has allowed me to love another. Greatest story ever told? Hell to the yes it is! Embracing myself regardless of what’s going on?  Cranky? Yeah who [...]

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As it tells us in our literature (you know the Big blue Book… at least for this drunk it’s my textbook), namely the Doctor’s opinion, we “cannot differentiate the true from the false”. huh? okay I’ll let Dr. Silkworth explain this since he did such a fabulous job doing so.  Linkage:  . http://www.aa.org/bigbookonline/en_doctoropinion.cfm Men and women [...]

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Sometimes we forget what it was like. To be new. To be really really sick. To be so riddled with self centered disease that we believe our own lies. It’s easy to forget really. When you’ve been in the rooms for a period of time so long it becomes second nature (this can come quickly [...]

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I’ve been thinking an awful lot lately about outcomes. Goals, dreams, aspirations, blah blah blah.  About making a transition to writing for a living and how I’m going to do that and where is this going to lead and omg I have to succeed at this. I had an epiphany of sorts (although of the [...]

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Shock and awe. No not an undercover ops mission but my reaction to the information my eyes are absorbing from this computer screen. Riots. Ones that make you shiver and shake. Ones that make you cringe and wonder how a human being could do such a thing? The mob mentality. One starts the brawl and [...]

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So I’ve been busy. Really really busy. So busy that getting three hours of sleep a night is a good night. Yeah. Balance is important. In every affair and no not the cheat on your spouse kind although that might be a good blog topic for another day. So I’m the new Editor-In-Chief of this [...]

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