You made me feel … when you did this to me … I NEED you to … You have to … or I’m gonna … okay I’m making myself nauseated just typing this crap. But something that (I wanna talk about) can be an issue (because I wanna talk about it) is putting your responsibility [...]
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normal?
What becomes normal? Besides a cycle on a washing machine of course, normal is a relative term. Perhaps a better way to coin it is, what becomes familiar? For years, pain and misery, self doubt and shame, hatred and bitter remorse were our constant companions. How cool is it to wake up one day and [...]
I Love Recovery, Inside my Mind
humility?
Humility is defined by Merriam-Websters (unabridged mind you) as the quality or state of being humble. Which of course led to the definition of humble: not proud or haughty; not arrogant or assertive; reflecting, expressing, or offered in a spirit of deference or submission. And then, being the dictionary lover that I am, I continued [...]
stick with the women
I’ve heard so many women say, “I don’t like talking to other women. Men understand me better. I don’t like women. They’re bitchy and catty.” Ahem. Really? I said that once upon a time. It was crap. Filter of an alcohol tainted mind gone a little goofy. I was afraid that a woman would see [...]
healing in the feeling …
I spout a lot about emotional intelligence. About NOT being reactive or over the top, about how important it is to not be ruled by emotion, and that being rational is best. And it is … BUT … there’s also something to be said for feeling, exactly what it is you’re supposed to feel given [...]
F. E. A. R.
F**k Everything And Run … Face Everything And Recover. Opposite ends of the spectrum of this word called FEAR. It seems that this is a concurrent theme in the helter skelter world of life … especially in addiction. Not just the obvious cowering shiver of a fright night movie show, fear takes many forms. Perhaps [...]
words.
Nothing new to be said, simply different ways to say (hopefully don’t spray) it. We can hear a thing over and over and over and then one day … one person … says that ONE thing in a certain way – and a magic lightbulb explodes above your head. That wake-up-shake-up where we hit our [...]
words with Sass.
In the spirit of transparency, it’s time again for Sassy Poetry. Where words flow and poignancy reigns supreme. This writing fills up the majority of my facebook page and I have tons of connections with poets both in and out of recovery. Words are healing and cathartic and … and … and … this is [...]
i’ll show you mine …
Strength. What does it mean really? We’re told in the rooms that sometimes we have to “lose” to win. That surrender is the goal. That throwing in the proverbial towel equals the path to finding “enlightenment” or at least the 12 steps towards such a thing. Paradoxical to say the least. We, who have been [...]
home-coming-home
I was sober for a long time … a (relatively) long time ago. There was a place that I went every Friday night for a decade. If anyone needed to see me they knew to go to the Northampton meeting and my saucy rump would be there up to g-o-d knows what. My home group. [...]
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