It’s been done. Better than you could ever imagine. No hateful words you can say to me … that’ve not already been said. See here. I know the dark night of the soul. The trembling self hatred of allowing someone to dominate and belittle the enigma that is me. Been to that show, front row [...]

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Feel. Real. Be the best you. Whether happy, sad, angry, lost.  Feel it to the core of who you are. Allow yourself the respect to be just where you are. Be gentle with you. Take care of your needs. Bubble baths, lay in bed, stay in your jammies all day.  Drink hot cocoa and gaze [...]

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Rewind. Back to before the mini’s were born. Before I said “I do.”  When I really had no idea how good I had it.  Age 29 and still unmarried.  A few major relationships up in flames.  Coming off chemo and a relationship devastated by my fiancee’s relapse.  Alone and lost but still makin’ it somehow. [...]

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Ever been down so long that you can’t imagine looking up? That when something amazing happens … it doesn’t feel real. That is the most insane sounding thing I’ve (almost) ever written. Why the hell would something good … feel not so? Joy overwritten by dusty old tapes ingrained by raps on the heart from [...]

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