For years, I sat in the dark. Unable, unwilling, un-something; to express the real of the deal of who I really was.  Especially during the years of the dark sickness that’s known as addiction.  Using covered up everything that I really was … like you (yes social chameleon-ism), so used to the manipulative dance that [...]

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In the words of my friend Ronald P. “I either do or don’t do.” I polled my facebook page about taking risks, to a few (although profound) responses. Funny, when I publish sexy poetry I get lots more feedback. *one raised eyebrow* Question was about taking risks; going out of your comfort zone. And NO [...]

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So. We get sober/clean.  We go to meetings, get a sponsor, do stepwork … all the necessaries.  What now? How in the sam hell do I have FUN and not use?  All my receptor sites, gut level instincts, behaviors, and attitudes have focused on using for so long that fun seems to be a distant [...]

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Before I came into the program, I truly believed that bowling with a group of friends was something that you could only do drunk. Since being in recovery I have found that bowling is a true fun time, even clean and sober! It is best to form teams, and make it a competition, matching shirts [...]

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So back in my using days, me and many of the people I know, and even don’t know, used to use holidays as an excuse to get wasted. Whether it was Halloween, Thanksgiving Eve, Martin Luther King Jr. Day, Memorial Day Weekend, etc. This is my second Halloween in recovery, although last year I don’t [...]

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So I have been struggling lately with how I am supposed to have a social life, while keeping my sobriety. There are some people in recovery that can go to clubs, and be in that atmosphere around people drinking and partying, but seriously I can’t. I don’t know how they do it. I know for [...]

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