Humility is defined by Merriam-Websters (unabridged mind you) as the quality or state of being humble. Which of course led to the definition of humble: not proud or haughty; not arrogant or assertive; reflecting, expressing, or offered in a spirit of deference or submission. And then, being the dictionary lover that I am, I continued [...]
recovered …
Continually I am reminded of the blessings of recovery; by newcomers especially. Still raw and full of despair for trying to do things “their” way, while their disease has them bound and gagged at knifepoint for what seems to be an eternity. If I wasn’t a dope fiend drunk my damn self, it would be [...]
home-coming-home
I was sober for a long time … a (relatively) long time ago. There was a place that I went every Friday night for a decade. If anyone needed to see me they knew to go to the Northampton meeting and my saucy rump would be there up to g-o-d knows what. My home group. [...]
cry baby.
Ever have the tears well up in your throat until you could no longer swallow? Eyes stinging, burning with memories of days gone by. The bitter and the sweet of a life limped and skipped over lava lakes and frigid waters. I get weepy around anniverseries. Always have. But usually only in “safe” places, where [...]
ripples …
Saturday night. Air so thick with moisture you could cut it with a broken bottle. The kind of night that starts trouble. When you’re out late, all done up … to no good. Where you’re itchin’ for for a good time and wanting to make it count. Sitting in a crowd of people; thousands in [...]
internalized …
Opinions are like _______, everyone has one. Yep. All of us, about most things, have an opinion. Shaped by perception (yes this word again) and past experiences, we view raw data and spin baby spin … the whirlwind begins. Opinionated information streams, whether disclosed or no, flavor our relations with others and selves. What evidence [...]
the best way?
I recently received a comment on this little ole’ website here that asked “What is the best way to recover from Substance Abuse?” Boy I tell ya. Had this been 10 years ago I’d have spouted some innate driven, learned the hard way 12 step rhetoric. But my experience in the last few years with [...]
promise?
You’ve noticed them. They’re the ones everyone in the room gravitates towards. The ones that can light up a meeting with a smile and whom everyone is glad to see. I knew a few of those people in my lifetime. The kind that had what I wanted, and I yearned to have the ego strength [...]
serendipity …
Walkin’ in from the cold hell that is, as we say in certain circles, “out”. Meaning just this … the inability to put down the poison, whatever it may be to you. Shivering from the cold shoulder, earned no less, given us by the world at large. We are forced, yes FORCED, to come to [...]
and i really do … love recovery … no eyerolls this time.
I was thinking tonight. Bout this blog and being asked to write it by the boys in the loft. And speaking of those boys, I was pondering their site In The Rooms and how it’s saved my proverbial ass more than once. My silken purse of a heart is filled with gratitude at this moment. [...]
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