It’s not so much what I say it’s how I say it; it’s not so much what I do it’s how I do it.   ~ Mae West. oh i love that woman. totally one of my idols. cool and classy. Oh so so SO true. It rather boils down to two little questions… Am [...]

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Do you remember that magical moment when you “got” it? And by “IT” I mean the moment when all defenses, doubt, denial, barriers … were swept away and somehow, someway you realized that you had found a solution? The parting of the internal red sea where for one moment in time … you knew that [...]

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I’m in heaven. Walking around my old college campus (yes i graduated from Akron U.) which is now filled with thousands and thousands (and yes thousands) of drunks; laughing, crying, hugging, sharing, LIVING … Founders Day style. Talk about being surrounded with God-consciousness, or if you prefer a power greater.  Puts life’s little petty issues [...]

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I’ve been going to Founders Day in Akron Ohio since 1992 (take away four years due to marriage-from-hell-ism and a six month relapse after 15 years sober. bleck). Every year I get uber nostalgic, because I’ve had the privilege to grow up in AA. Getting sober at 19, I literally learned how to live and [...]

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I was talking with a friend at work yesterday. Per usual it was a good conversation filled with the real deal cream filling center of down and dirty. He looks at me and says oh so calmly… “When exactly do you think you’re going to learn to receive?” Ahem. Excuse me? What do you mean [...]

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like         similar to; typical of; resembling. like-1     having the same form or characteristics like-2     to find pleasure in; enjoy. So. How exactly do you go from pretty much despising yourself … to actually liking the person you are enough to sit in your own skin? This one? [...]

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I am an absolute crying mess. Sometimes the right thing to do hurts like hell. Okay most times it does. This just may be the hardest blog I have ever written. And if you’re opposed to mushy, sappy, sad, self disclosure … stop reading right now. Because I’m a little bit a lot broken at [...]

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Yanno what? The only thing I have in me tonight are the following statements… I do not have to do everything “right”. It’s okay to not have my shit together all the time. Being human is pretty cool. Rest… when I’m tired. Overextending will get me pissy. I can’t be all things to all people. [...]

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Yeah. Overused topic. But with a twist. Any given night you can be sure that the topic of any 12 step meeting could very well be “gratitude”.  What are you grateful for? blah blah. Now I’m not mocking … for once. This is important. I’ve been to a few meetings on this topic. More like [...]

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Joking around, the only way a truly sassy girl can do, one of my dear friends who happens to be a Judge (literally) commented on a member status or two.  I was engaged in a silly conversation about taking saucy pictures in a bathroom, when I was told about my ‘godlessness’. Now, I’m used to [...]

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