“But he has so much POTENTIAL!” “If only you knew him like I knew him, you would like him too.” “He’s not THAT bad. He had a bad childhood.” “You’re just trying to keep us apart.” Okay okay … and okay. Wow. Those are direct quotes from prior relationships early on in recovery, when my [...]

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I began pondering, as I’m known to do from time to time, about relationships. All of them. With others, self, or lack thereof.  How vulnerable can we safely be? I was told by a new friend via late night candle lit, gravelly voiced phone call that “I’m brash” and it appears that I “don’t care [...]

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Now I don’t know if you are anything like me. (Let’s hope not) But when it came to interpersonal relationships, it used to be that other peoples opinions counted a helluva lot more than mine did.  Didn’t even have to be someone close mind you; I didn’t want to hurt someone’s feelings … even if [...]

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Yup. I’m goin there. Epic “no-no”, cause of arguments, discussions, eye brow raises and 13th step jokes. Down this slippery slope I go (pun absolutely intended).  So … you wanna go for coffee after the meeting? Best recovery pick up line EVER!!! New in recovery … or even not so new. Sex can be a [...]

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hint, hint. wink. A little snide here, a bit of  self absorbed there, a smidge of jealousy, a whiff of demanding.  First getting to know someone whether ethernet induced or “real” life (lol what is real anyway?), you always have hints.  An inkling, if you will, of things to come. Prescient subconscious nudges of “WTF” [...]

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she must like it. she stayed didn’t she? god you’d think a girl would learn? Not so easy. Not so quickly did the dynamite go BOOM. Like a flash before your eyes in slow motion; it happened.  Never knowing when the next unkind word would spout and knock you on your ass, before you even [...]

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I sit. Still. Chaos in the form of three wriggly little bodies, surrounds me. Mini ninja’s hootin’ and hollerin’, playing dollies and dress up, cowboy princess butterfly fairies (yes all four at once).  I watch in awe at their innate sense of fairness, each in turn showing kindness towards their fellow fairies.  Don’t get me [...]

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Dancing, hair flipping, shaking my ass to the inner music. C walkin, pop and lock, pirouette, head spin; hip hop groovin grandmaster flash style. Belly dance, limbo, doin the fuckin’ Charleston. Doin the ever loving mexican hat dance, channeling my inner salsa … extra hot and spicy please. Solo soul, performance art. Add a partner [...]

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Mini ninjas. Three blonde haired beauties. My reason for waking. All that is good in this world, they are to me. I’m writing this morning. Writing for my book and writing for fun and writing for this site that I’m so blessed to have been asked by three amazing men to write.  I look over [...]

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New year. New beginnings. New chances to be me.  Explore things I never thought possible. Love, life, and everything in between. I have a love story in me that has allowed me to love another. Greatest story ever told? Hell to the yes it is! Embracing myself regardless of what’s going on? PMS … ick [...]

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