Kyczy has been teaching recovery focused yoga classes since 2008. She is a devoted teacher to people in private sessions, in treatment centers and in jail. Recently released is her Word Search “Yoga and Recovery” book and she is the author of “Yoga and the Twelve Step Path” , “Life in Bite-Sized Morsels” “From Burnout to Balance” and she has recently released a book and workbook through Central Recovery Press:”A Yogic Tools for Recovery; A Guide To working The Steps”. Recorded meditations and poses are available for free to accompany the book and workbooks. You can also join Kyczy and a host of other people in recovery every Sunday morning at 8am PT (11 am ET) on In The Rooms at the Yoga Recovery meeting. Join the Thursday night “12 Step Study; Yogic Tools For Recovery” 8pm ET on ITR. Kyczy is very proud of her family; husband, kids, and grandkids, all who amaze her in unique and wonderful ways. Join her mailing list for other online offerings at www.yogarecovery.com.

My Relationship with Relationships – Kyczy Hawk

As last year was drawing to a close I pulled a few old diaries (now called “journals”) from my shelf. It has been years since I looked at them. Some years due to fear and shame, other times avoided in disgust for the sheer repetition in the pain, but this time I pulled some down with compassion and curiosity. Almost every page is filled with the pains of unrequited “love”. What I found was informative, enlightening and somewhat heartening. These books chronicle a young woman’s struggle for wholeness and autonomy over years (one of the early entries begins “Here I am, twenty four year old. There have been so many changes over the past year and I am lost again.”) Each entry has that same unmoored quality, desperately trying to find foothold for a spirit that is lost. Most often I looked for safe harbor in relationships. I won’t start… Continue reading

Binging – By Kyczy Hawk

    Binging – when the feeling from doing something exceeds the reason for doing something. KH I am in recovery, I don’t’ smoke, drink alcohol, rely on relationships for self worth, or use intoxicants in any form. At least not traditional intoxicants. I have become more and more aware of my inclination to binge. The concept of “binging” has taken on a lighter more humorous meaning as when we say “I was binge watching This is Us all day Saturday. It refers to a relatively harmless indulgence in a neutral pastime. But when this passtime becomes all the time or a time of avoidance, then the activity is not so funny. I can binge on just about anything – I can become consumed with the importance of mopping up crumbs or tidying the house – not one thing can be out of place and the “things” that are seen… Continue reading

What Part Of “Fatal Disease” Don’t We Understand? – Kyczy Hawk

I identify myself as a person in recovery. For years I identified myself with naming my disease (ADDICTION) but I am now “Kyczy, a woman in recovery from addiction, alcoholism, and a few other “isms’ as well.” But the lead is I AM A WOMAN IN RECOVERY. I know this isn’t according to Hoyle, or the customary practices of introducing ourselves at twelve step meetings, but I believe in creating mental habits of healing. The husband of a dear friend, someone with multiples of years sober, forgot that he was in recovery. He forgot to go to meetings, his sponsor had become an occasional friend, one he seldom reached out to anymore. He became isolated; he forgot that addiction is a disease of separation. He forgot that he couldn’t stay well alone, he forgot his spirituality and eventually he forgot that he wasn’t a drinker. Dead after twelve days: found… Continue reading

Seeds of Your Spirit – By Kyczy Hawk

  I was never totally scum. Not before I started drinking and during my pre-recovery years. I was also not struck wonderful when I found recovery. However, when I share my story you might think that I was perfectly bad in my “before days” and steadily better on the road of “progress” with occasional bouts of perfection now. That is not the case. Not completely bad then, not thoroughly good now. The seeds of my true self were always there before I used, while I use and now, after I have stopped using. The little sprouts of my spiritual being popped up from  time to time in my youth and even in my using “career”. I was not totally one way or another, then or now. Reading the Big Book might give one the impression that we alcoholics are seething pots of self centeredness, self will; filled with self pity. … Continue reading

Listen to Your Body and Believe What it Says – By Kyczy Hawk

As a person in recovery I have been taught the danger signs of emotional relapse. Everyone I know who has returned after a slip tells a similar story: no meetings, no program and emotional relapse. How this relapse let’s itself be known is individual, but there are certain universal signs and they start in the body and move through the emotions and influence the disease centers in our minds. Yes, addiction is a disease of body, mind and spirit. It returns in just that way. Most of us have heard of HALT; Hungry, Angry, Lonely, and Tired. I add an “E” to the end, spelling it HALTE. The “E” stands for ego. Often an emotional relapse will creep in through one of these doors. If not addressed, not only will I become”unlovely” and fall back into old forms of behavior, but my old stress responses will emerge. One set of… Continue reading