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About Kyczy Hawk

Kyczy Hawk RYT E-500 is a yoga instructor and author. She teaches in treatment centers as well as yoga studios in her hometown of San Jose, CA. Her volunteer time includes teaching yoga in Elmwood Women’s Jail and The Recovery Cafe San Jose. She has been a space holder for the internationally known Y12SR (Yoga of Twelve Step Recovery) for over six years. Kyczy has published several books including “Yoga and the Twelve Step Path” 2012 and “Life in Bite Sized Morsels” 2015. Her book “Yogic Tools for Recovery; A Guide To Working The Steps” will be out November 14, 2017. She is a contributor to national and international magazines (I Love Recovery Cafe, Yoga Times, 12 Step Gazette, OM Magazine, Recovery Today Magazine and Indigo International, among others.) Kyczy has developed a series of yoga sequences for Studio Live TV that incorporate recovery principles in all-levels yoga classes. The link for them can be found on her website www.yogarecovery.com. Recovery has allowed her to heal and enhance her relationships with her kids, her family and her grand-family. Life is now rich with possibilities which she explores with art, craft and travel.

Disease or Dis-ease – By Kyczy Hawk

  There are lots of articles being published this month about recovery. It is, after all, National Recovery Month. I am pleased to note that this is called National Recovery Month and not something like National Addiction Awareness Month- which focuses on the illness, not on the healing. And so to my topic. Do we have a disease, or an illness or an injury? What does recovery mean? I have “alerts” set up in my email account to advise me when articles pop up about addiction, relapse, recovery, and all of these combined with YOGA (of course). I get a lot of publicity fluff articles about treatment centers and other corporate PR material. I get some good information as well. I also get controversial articles  – the most recent one in support of the point of view that addiction is not a disease; “This Neuroscientist Argues That Addiction Is Not… Continue reading

Turning Toward Fear – By Kyczy Hawk

  For several years I had been addressing my fear with reasons why I shouldn’t feel that way. I had been looking for the underlying “reason” (read excuses, or judgement, or rationalizations), and then addressing each of these by talking myself out of them. Find a fear and smash it had been my approach. I did attempt to look behind it for “reasons”, but I also avoided feeling it. For example as one who is afraid of public speaking we might be advised to imagine the audience in their birthday suits; I would suggest methods to myself to avoid the fear and soldier on. This did let me approach situations that used to baffle me, to encounter new life experiences that caused me some anxiety, to participate in activities that made me uncomfortable. I took on leadership roles and did things I had never done before, I did them sober… Continue reading

Rocketed Into A Fourth Dimension -Kyczy Hawk

Clean and sober: now what? 90 meetings in 90 days, read the book, get a sponsor, write out your steps longhand, read the Morning Reflections, change everything and did I mention;” Go to meetings”?  I thought that getting sober was going to be a long slog from one recovery oriented duty to another. Sure, the stories at the meetings were often funny and entertaining. Some shares were worthy of stand up comic bookings. Others were so tender and painful it seemed as if every heart in the room would break. Tears could render the meeting absolutely silent: hearing a pin drop would be a cannon boom. The reading! It seemed it would never end. The first 164 pages being the foundation of the program (I started in AA and it is my primary fellowship), then there are the stories at the back, which are taken often as “gospel”. Those, being… Continue reading

What’s Love Got To Do With It? – By Kyczy Hawk

If you remember the famous Tina Turner song, you remember the refrain: “What’s love but a second hand emotion.” That is the way it used to be. I loved you if my needs, thrills, cravings, or wants were being met. I didn’t see YOU, I saw my desires. I was loving the “if…then” experience, not the person. The second side to that was: “I loved me if you loved me.” I was not able to see me as a whole being in and of myself. I was lovable or acceptable if you saw me so; I was good if I was productive and did good things, I was bad if I was idle or when I did badly or poorly. It was all out there and not in here, in the heart of me. The way I didn’t see into the heart of “him” (except when defending or justifying a… Continue reading

My Love Story – Yoga & Recovery

What it used to be like, what happened and what it is like now is the traditional framework for sharing at a meeting. This progression holds true for both my recovery and my yoga practice. At one point my life was consumed by suffering which eventually became overwhelming. I had a life changing experience and chose a different path. Let me give you some of the details of my journey. I was what is termed as a garbage girl ­ I used anything and everything. I used chemical substances including alcohol in combination, I used alone, I used them with other people – I’d take anything, anywhere, anytime. I exhausted my internal resources to cope with that lifestyle. About the same time I ran out of other resources too: money, friends, family, work, health and the will to live. Having hit my lowest point, somehow I managed to have a… Continue reading