Functionally Ever After

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Photography by MrClean.

 

Why does it start?

Will it ever end?

The dysfunction eating away at your soul

Till you feel so empty and no longer whole.

Why did it choose me, why is this my reality?

The pendulum swings, and soon it becomes your normality

 

Functionally ever after

Can it be?

They say to keep the faith

Guess I’ll hold on another day

And see.

Functionally ever after

Is it meant for me?

Guess I’ll hold on another day

And see.

 

What life does it pick?

How can a person become so sick?

I didn’t choose these parents

I didn’t choose this life

Why should I pay the price?

Their dysfunction became my everyday rife

The odds are against me, I feel they are stacked

I should learn to hang on to maybe the fact

That they could be worse on so many levels

That one day, maybe I will conquer these devils

 

Free will is a gift from above

Grabbing a hold tightly of this gift of love

Learning to stop getting so lost in the past

To know this does not have to last

Some days are easy, while others are hard

Choosing the way I want to play this card

It’s time to take a stand

God please do not let go of this hand

 

Functionally ever after

Can it be?

They say to keep the faith

Guess I’ll hold on another day

And see.

Functionally ever after

Is it meant for me?

Guess I’ll hold on another day and see

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About Tammy / Pixie65

Tammy is in recovery since September 24, 2014, having survived a five year spiral of binge drinking, and a history of abuse and dysfunction. A single mother of three and grandmother of five she has striven to learn and grow on her path. With a background in Marketing, PR and business and accounting, she considers herself an entrepreneur with four separate businesses under her belt. She's always had a drive and passion to share her own story of victory in overcoming adversity.
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7 Comments

  1. Hello my friend! I wish to say that this post is awesome, great written and include almost all significant infos.
    I’d like to look more posts like this .

  2. Wow I had no idea! Where did you learn how to do that?
    Love you,
    Beth aka sissy:)

  3. Thank you Tammy. Beautifully written. I began crying immediately. A good cathartic cry. I am going to copy your poem and read it every morning to inspire me to try to live another day “functionally”. Peace and love to you.

    • Thank you SO much Cathy!
      I was born into complete and utter dysfunction and abuse. I used to always ask why me(because of my past)I now ask why me(because of all the blessings I have in my life now), and I have come to realize God has always had a purpose for me, and kept me safe..
      It was my choice what to do with it when I was able.. I wonder how I ever survived what i did, and my children were truly my saving grace.
      Our history of dysfunction was just terrible and I refused to allow it to carry to my children. I did not care what it took, and never gave up trying.
      Hang in there , and know please, YOU DESERVE EVERY bit of joy, love and happiness life has to offer!
      Much love to you!

  4. Thank you for this poem. It really shows the determination to make it through. No matter what.

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