Reflections on the Anniversary I Never Thought Would Happen – Jackie S

Saturday, November 21, 2015 is the 6th anniversary of my last mind-altering substance taken for recreational purposes.  I have said that to myself at least 20 times in the last two days.  To me, that is a remarkable feat.  I never thought it would happen.  When I relapsed after 10 years dry, but not in recovery, I thought it was just a matter of time before I would disappear from the Earth.  I was a failure – again.  The shame and pain was unbearable.  How could I possibly let go of 10 years – thrown away like just some crinkled piece of paper stuck in my jeans pocket and run through the laundry, fragmented and no longer recognizable as anything of value. Eight more years passed before I thought I might be sick and tired of being sick and tired.  I was a failure at sobriety and I was a… Continue reading

PODCAST WITH KLEN+SOBR – Nicola O’Hanlon

Yesterday, November 19th, I did a podcast interview with Chris & Jeff from KLEN+SOBR, and their “Since Right Now” podcast. It was a really cool experience. In it I talk about Ireland, my drinking, getting sober and of course the most important part – Recovery!   “Turns out everyone with a recovery site and their mother with a recovery site was—and is—collecting “recovery stories.” So, K+S evolved quickly to incorporate just about anything relating to addiction recovery in all it’s permutations. The tent pole, as many of you now know is the Since Right Now Podcast.”   Continue reading

I LOVE RECOVERY CAFE – We need YOUR help!

Everybody has a story to tell, and we want yours!  I Love Recovery Café has been live now for over two months and we are thrilled with the results and the feedback. All platforms of expression have been really successful and have inspired the recovery community right across the world. So far we have contributors from Australia, England, Scotland, Ireland, France, Canada and the USA, bringing their passion for recovery together. Everything on the site is original work by the artists, including music. We know that there are lots more people out there in recovery, writing, composing and painting who may never have considered submitting their work for publication. Sharing your work and your story with the world gives it life and the expression of our deepest selves breathes life into us. If you, a family member or a friend has something to share with the world, please contact us… Continue reading

A Book that Changed My Life- You Can Heal Your Life by Louise L. Hay

The first ever self-help book to find its way to me was “You Can Heal Your Life” by Louise L. Hay. It was 1993 – I was 18 years old. Already deeply rooted in addictive behaviour, I had started to realise that my life was not normal and was suffering a lot with emotional issues. I started reading about alternative ways to help myself and found a Reiki practitioner – something that was new to me. While discussing my health issues with her, she used the book “You Can Heal Your Life”, to find out the negative thinking patterns relating to the onset of type 1 diabetes, which I’d had since I was 7. In the book published on 1st January 1984, Louise L. Hay talks about her own life and the situations that led her to adopt certain negative thinking and belief patterns. Subsequently serious health problems manifested in… Continue reading

No More Notches On Your Bedpost – Valuing Your Female Sexuality in Recovery

Entering any new situation in life can be uncomfortable. We are so used to doing things in a certain way, that changing our mode of behavior to one we are not familiar with, feels like we are floating in open water with no life buoy. Some of the greatest examples of this can be seen in early recovery – or recovery in general for some. We often carry our old ways with us into new situations, only to discover old behaviors don’t serve us and are not appropriate nor needed any longer. So you just walked out of the bars and clubs and into a 12 step meeting or another program for your specific drug of choice. You’re used to being hit on, valued for the size of your breasts and shape of your ass. You’ve become accustomed to the cheap, meaningless compliments from guys, who use the word baby… Continue reading