Holiday Depletion or Restoration; Finding a Balance – Kyczy Hawk

The holidays are coming! The holidays are coming! These words can strike anguish and fear, or excitement and anticipation. Or all of the above.  There can be feelings of gratitude and generosity, grief, guilt or anger. My childhood, my memories and my dreams can color my hopes for the upcoming six weeks. It takes attention and intention to avoid depleting my energy in frenetic preparation and to find moments to restore my mind, body and spirit to sanity. Yoga, meditation and breathwork help immeasurably to help me identify feelings of exasperation, excess and exhaustion. Any one of these, and any two together, much less three throw me out of balance and into a dangerous condition of pre-relapse mode. This is where I lose my allegiance to my recovery and let myself become emotionally intoxicated. When that happens I act in ways I used to behave, and lose my ethics, morals… Continue reading

Reflections on the Anniversary I Never Thought Would Happen – Jackie S

Saturday, November 21, 2015 is the 6th anniversary of my last mind-altering substance taken for recreational purposes.  I have said that to myself at least 20 times in the last two days.  To me, that is a remarkable feat.  I never thought it would happen.  When I relapsed after 10 years dry, but not in recovery, I thought it was just a matter of time before I would disappear from the Earth.  I was a failure – again.  The shame and pain was unbearable.  How could I possibly let go of 10 years – thrown away like just some crinkled piece of paper stuck in my jeans pocket and run through the laundry, fragmented and no longer recognizable as anything of value. Eight more years passed before I thought I might be sick and tired of being sick and tired.  I was a failure at sobriety and I was a… Continue reading

PODCAST WITH KLEN+SOBR – Nicola O’Hanlon

Yesterday, November 19th, I did a podcast interview with Chris & Jeff from KLEN+SOBR, and their “Since Right Now” podcast. It was a really cool experience. In it I talk about Ireland, my drinking, getting sober and of course the most important part – Recovery!   “Turns out everyone with a recovery site and their mother with a recovery site was—and is—collecting “recovery stories.” So, K+S evolved quickly to incorporate just about anything relating to addiction recovery in all it’s permutations. The tent pole, as many of you now know is the Since Right Now Podcast.”   Continue reading

I LOVE RECOVERY CAFE – We need YOUR help!

Everybody has a story to tell, and we want yours!  I Love Recovery Café has been live now for over two months and we are thrilled with the results and the feedback. All platforms of expression have been really successful and have inspired the recovery community right across the world. So far we have contributors from Australia, England, Scotland, Ireland, France, Canada and the USA, bringing their passion for recovery together. Everything on the site is original work by the artists, including music. We know that there are lots more people out there in recovery, writing, composing and painting who may never have considered submitting their work for publication. Sharing your work and your story with the world gives it life and the expression of our deepest selves breathes life into us. If you, a family member or a friend has something to share with the world, please contact us… Continue reading