What Friday In Recovery Looks Like.

On this particular day, my recovered life looks like this. I’m sitting on my living room couch working (writing this), still wearing my pj’s and flip flops at 11am. I drove my daughter to school like this after getting her ready for Halloween dress up day. I have an abandoned kitten by my side that my sister found yesterday and since we are “cat people”, we of course adopted it. I’ve become its surrogate mother, or according to my children – grandmother. We now have four cats which is slightly unmanageable, but sometimes having a conscience can make life that way. I’ll get him (we think it’s a him) checked out at the vets later and get advice on how to care for a kitten too young to be away from its mother. The rain is pouring down outside. There’s towels and underwear on the washing line, dripping wet, because… Continue reading

Nutrition for Detox and Optimum Health

It is beneficial to plan a detox to flush out unwanted toxins in our body accumulated from our addictive behaviors. When we cleanse our system it allows us to absorb more nutrition from the foods we eat, therefore improving our health overall. For three days leading up to your detox diet, it is typically recommended to eliminate alcohol, sugar, dairy, wheat, artificial sweeteners, trans fats, and packaged, boxed, canned or fast foods. You may also want to take this time to rid your kitchen of any foods or beverages that might tempt you during your detox diet. If you’re unable to buy all organic produce, purchase a fruit and vegetable wash to help rid your produce of pesticide residues, waxes, and other undesirable chemicals. I recommend that this is a regular practice with fruits and vegetables whether you are detoxing or not. Here is a sample menu for detoxing: First… Continue reading

My Super Powers And How to Use them Wisely

I have super powers. I was taught them early in life. I can walk into a room and sense how people are feeling. I can tell if there has been an argument or if there is peace. I have honed my skills to be able to respond and “perform” according to what I think others need: a clown, an organizer, a quiet mouse, a valiant protector. I used these skills to keep myself safe, to find control in an ever-changing landscape in a dysfunctional home. I used these skills to find some measure of security by matching my insides to other people’s outsides so, at least, it looked like we were getting along. As a child I was (mostly) very well behaved, and tried to be pleasing to the adults, helpful to the max; taking care of the other kids, running errands, cleaning up. I took responsibility, at a gut… Continue reading

Mind Vs. Heart – Poetry by Sarah McKinney

I’ve got a mind That tells me to smoke Shop, eat, drink, use Anything To change how I feel That’s constantly planning Playing out Different scenarios So I feel more prepared For an uncertain future A mind that wants To control everything That’s easily irritated And likes to be right That tells me your ideas Are stupid And what you want me to do Is a fucking waste of my time That it’s better to quit While I’m ahead Than make mistakes And try A mind that wakes me Up at 4AM Tells me to start checking Things off my list That I’ll never be good enough That everyone hates me Feels sorry for the fact That I even exist That I’ll never have enough Love in my life Even though I’ve always Been surrounded by it A mind that tells me Not to answer the phone When family and… Continue reading