Little Steps – Ryan Michael Sirois

Last night I drove to a meeting where I was asked to speak about my experience with addiction. That relentless butterfly in my stomach began flapping its wings a bit faster, my heart quickly followed suit. A growing anxiety that I would be the epic failure of the century. It was night, a silent static in the air. Resting in my chest. What if they laugh at me? What am I going to say? What if they judge every ridiculous word? Typical thoughts as I drive to my execution. I can only imagine the thoughts of a man walking down death row. Google directed me to a neighborhood I had never been before. Run down homes, a gas station, a few people had already put up dangling strands of Christmas lights. I can’t believe it is already the holiday season. Thanksgiving had just wrapped up. Pale, cream colored homes stained… Continue reading

Depletion or Restoration – Nutrition to Help the Balance

Restoring a healthy mind and emotions were my main concern when I started my journey in recovery. I was a ball of confusion and was unaware how much that caused my body to be depleted of health and energy. Despite thinking I was taking care of myself, I was still getting sick a lot. I was consumed with emotional disturbances and it was tough trying to stay sane and clean. I had little energy to deal with anything else.  Eventually, when things calmed down some, I began to pay more attention to the other aspects affecting my wellbeing. I began to focus on my food and nutrition. I noticed how sugar and simple carbs were not my friend. They did by all means offer comfort for a time, but I knew if I kept moving in that direction I was only hurting myself further. The number on the scale was… Continue reading

Spirituality – What is it?

The world, it seems, is in the midst of revolution. The numbers of people waking up and seeking truth and breaking the shackles of repression, both on a personal and societal level, are rising daily. Never has the word “Spirituality” been uttered so frequently and it appears that everyone I meet is on a path to obtain self realisation in one manner or another. So many avenues to take, so many faiths and belief systems to choose from; one can get quite confused by the masses of information we can find on spirituality and obtaining self awareness. But what is it we really seek from this elusive spirituality? Is it a means to obtaining the supreme health of body and mind? Is it the latest trend and all the cool people are doing it? Or maybe you’re not sure, but something inside you is calling you to a place that… Continue reading

Friends With Benefits – No Thanks! by Karina Shubaly

My journey with creating healthy sexual relationships started about 5 years ago. I found myself yet again, wailing to my brother in law, the tale of another infatuation gone awry. I refer to my brother in law as Saint Monica; the saint of Patience!  We talked about the idea of me writing a comedic and poignant book about surviving addictive relationships (past, present and future). I certainly had enough potential comedic material to fill that book and another, through the assorted pseudo relationships I had since leaving my husband. Recently I found myself, once again, spinning faster than a whirling dervish or Tasmanian Devil. It was crazy. I found myself angry, sad and joyous all at the same time. When a friend hit an “ouchie” yesterday, the tears quietly and openly fell. There were shared moments of laughter with friends; the kind of laughter that hurts your belly and you can… Continue reading