Mind Vs. Heart – Poetry by Sarah McKinney

I’ve got a mind That tells me to smoke Shop, eat, drink, use Anything To change how I feel That’s constantly planning Playing out Different scenarios So I feel more prepared For an uncertain future A mind that wants To control everything That’s easily irritated And likes to be right That tells me your ideas Are stupid And what you want me to do Is a fucking waste of my time That it’s better to quit While I’m ahead Than make mistakes And try A mind that wakes me Up at 4AM Tells me to start checking Things off my list That I’ll never be good enough That everyone hates me Feels sorry for the fact That I even exist That I’ll never have enough Love in my life Even though I’ve always Been surrounded by it A mind that tells me Not to answer the phone When family and… Continue reading

New Gamblers Anonymous Meeting on InTheRooms

I’m Dustin, and this is an extremely important endeavor for me because this is something that is very close to my heart. Gambling took a toll on my life and those around me for over 8 years. My family, my friends, my coworkers, my wife, my child all suffered from my addiction. For many years I didn’t even realize that I was hurting anyone let alone myself. I saw it as just a little fun and a little action or excitement. As the debt mounted and my gambling continued to spiral out of control I was finally confronted with the fact that I did have a serious problem. I finally succumbed to the gambling addiction and checked myself into rehab. After weeks of rehab, years of counseling, and GA meetings I have developed a deeper understanding of my addiction, a greater sense of my higher power and faith, and a… Continue reading

Advice from our Nutrition Coach Kathleen Russell

Creating new ideas and habits around food is the easiest way for implementing change that sticks and no longer feels like a chore. Learning that we matter and deserve good health is the first step.  When struggling is our daily reality it becomes normal and neglecting ourselves is a result of that struggle. Recovery reminds us to live one day at a time or in this case, one meal at a time. This philosophy is a way to simplify our thinking and to remain mindful of our choices. Our journey in recovery teaches us that our addictions blocked us from reaching our spirit selves. The quiet voice within was rarely heard. Learning to have a new relationship with food is not by any means easy and as with any change, requires a conscious commitment to take the necessary steps. Daily meditation is a powerful way to enhance our attitude towards… Continue reading

SELF-ESTEEM: Tips, Tricks & Traps – by Kyczy Hawk

I came to recovery broken. I came to recovery having lost all sense of self. I had a huge sense of what I had needed; another drink, another line, another pill – anything- I just needed something!  Until I didn’t. Until I had only one thing left to lose: my being. The day after I had taken my last drink, and NO, I didn’t know at the time it would be my last, but that day, that morning I woke up, sitting on the edge of the bed – looking out at nothing. I felt lost and doomed. I felt that if I did this one more time, if I drank and drugged just one more time, I would walk out on what was left of my life. I would walk out of my dingy infested room, out the front door and turn my back on the last bits of… Continue reading