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How I Learned What Love Is – By Greg R

  Before I came to the fellowship, Love was physical and material. I didn’t like commitment, however, my attitude to anything was “What’s in it for me?” or “OK, and what do I get out of it?” I was either totally selfish or completely grovelling; there was seldom an in between balance. If I wasn’t in a relationship, or what I took as a relationship, then I was a failure. If I was in a relationship, I was either; scared of her seeing the real me, or more often than not, seeking comfort from the female of the species, to impress or get them to feel sorry for me, just for the sympathy sex. Basically, when with my partner, I was happy and contented, but if I was working away I acted like a single man on the hunt. After coming to the fellowship, having lost mostly everything, let alone… Continue reading

The Little Things That Keep Us Coming Back – By Kenny P

This Saturday, with a little bit of luck, I’ll be celebrating 34 years in Recovery. Very often at this time of year, I start reflecting on things that have happened in my life, and just how I got to this place filled with gratitude. I looked down at my keychain, and there, staring me in the face, was a vivid reminder of how fragile our Recovery can be. A little over 28 years ago I moved up to Fort Lauderdale from Miami. I had slightly over 5 years clean at the time. I had just gotten married, my son was born a year later, and we bought a beautiful little house in Cooper City….a bedroom community of Fort Lauderdale. Although my life was good, there were many changes and challenges, all taking place at the same time. I went from a five minute commute to work, to spending close to… Continue reading

A Thorough Look At Your Eating Plan – Kathleen Russell, CNC, HC

Being thorough with our nutrition intake has so many benefits for our wellbeing but it’s one of the hardest changes to make in our lives. We tend to make excuses as to why we can’t do it. Indeed it can be overwhelming to think about especially when our supermarkets are full of foods that tend not to be good for us. So were do we begin? Simple ways to be thorough First we must really become aware of the condition of our bodies. How are we functioning? What health difficulties do we deal with daily? How do I feel physically? Asking these questions can help us find the motivation to make changes. Once we decide to take some action in a direction of self-care we have a new connection with ourselves that is very real and very exciting. Like anything in our lives it is amazing how comforting it is… Continue reading

Embracing The Fullness Of My Feelings – By Nicola O’Hanlon

Today the moon is full. I follow the moons cycles, as is the way of my spiritual practice. When the moon is at its fullest I use it as a guide to explore how I feel, in an attempt to embrace myself fully. All my parts. Not just the bits I like but also the bits that I’m not totally wild about. One of the most significant of lessons I have learned is that categorising feelings into good and bad piles is a complete waste of time. Through my years of self-development my perception now is that there is no such thing as a good or bad feelings. Feelings just are. I noticed the reaction of my rescue dog Ruby, to the new arrival of Reggie, another rescue dog we adopted this week. She wasn’t happy. She sulked and became quiet and basically reacted to the presence of this other… Continue reading

Alone – By Jessica Donovan

    Where were you when I was sitting alone in the parking lot of the motel we called home? Where were you when I picked up that needle and stuck myself with it? Where were you? You knew he had HIV/AIDS. I used to cry and feel so lonely without you there. So I would go outside and play by myself. In the parking lot of the motel we lived in. Where the heroin needle lay. The one my HIV infected uncle likely dropped on his way in. I never knew where you were but when you found me sitting on the asphalt with a needle sticking out of my thumb that got your attention. Crisis averted, I didn’t get infected. Lucky for me, not you. All I ever wanted was you to be there but you always left me alone or sent me away. I didn’t understand. I… Continue reading