Ravaged

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    My body is ravaged

    My soul is torn

    I have smothered my spirit

    My mind is clouded

    My heart full of shame

    And I shake with fear

    Can I keep trying to start over

    & begin again & again

    What must it take for me to get off this ride

    Will I even be able to survive

    My foundation has crumbled I cannot lie

    My prospects seem unreachable

    Is this how I will die

    My tears seem never to dry

    I cry out for forgiveness

    It’s me who turns away

    I have no one & nothing but my ability to pray

    Is it worse to feel nothing

    Or far too much

    I long for serenity for longer than a day

    Have I passed the point too far

    Or am I just in time

    I don’t know if this choice is just mine

    I ask for Angels to surround me but I know they never left

    It was me, always me that abandoned myself

    About TL Nunnery

    TL lives in Miami, Florida and is passionate about writing, photography, yoga, reading and nature. She is also an avid Recovery 2.0 fan. In recovery herself since 2011 she says she is grateful to have the opportunity to share her experience with her fellow recovering brothers and sisters.
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    2 Comments

    1. DANG! That was awesome! I didn’t want it to end!

      How true is it that we can so easily give up on ourselves, the one we should fight hardest for!

      Thank you for sharing that! I am a HUGH angel person, so I envisioned that part of it!

      • Thank you! It was so personal and written from the heart during a particularly low moment. I’m so glad it resonated with you. Being stuck in the “frequency of addiction” (Tommy Rosen, Recovery 2.0) is so painful, vicious and truly insane!
        It wasn’t an easy decision to share but I know that’s how we help one another & never give up….

        I’m so blessed to know that it can and does get better if we work for it! One day at a time.

        Love & Light,
        TL

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