Mind Vs. Heart – Poetry by Sarah McKinney

I’ve got a mind That tells me to smoke Shop, eat, drink, use Anything To change how I feel That’s constantly planning Playing out Different scenarios So I feel more prepared For an uncertain future A mind that wants To control everything That’s easily irritated And likes to be right That tells me your ideas Are stupid And what you want me to do Is a fucking waste of my time That it’s better to quit While I’m ahead Than make mistakes And try A mind that wakes me Up at 4AM Tells me to start checking Things off my list That I’ll never be good enough That everyone hates me Feels sorry for the fact That I even exist That I’ll never have enough Love in my life Even though I’ve always Been surrounded by it A mind that tells me Not to answer the phone When family and… Continue reading

Functionally Ever After

  Why does it start? Will it ever end? The dysfunction eating away at your soul Till you feel so empty and no longer whole. Why did it choose me, why is this my reality? The pendulum swings, and soon it becomes your normality   Functionally ever after Can it be? They say to keep the faith Guess I’ll hold on another day And see. Functionally ever after Is it meant for me? Guess I’ll hold on another day And see.   What life does it pick? How can a person become so sick? I didn’t choose these parents I didn’t choose this life Why should I pay the price? Their dysfunction became my everyday rife The odds are against me, I feel they are stacked I should learn to hang on to maybe the fact That they could be worse on so many levels That one day, maybe I… Continue reading