Seeds of Your Spirit – By Kyczy Hawk

  I was never totally scum. Not before I started drinking and during my pre-recovery years. I was also not struck wonderful when I found recovery. However, when I share my story you might think that I was perfectly bad in my “before days” and steadily better on the road of “progress” with occasional bouts of perfection now. That is not the case. Not completely bad then, not thoroughly good now. The seeds of my true self were always there before I used, while I use and now, after I have stopped using. The little sprouts of my spiritual being popped up from  time to time in my youth and even in my using “career”. I was not totally one way or another, then or now. Reading the Big Book might give one the impression that we alcoholics are seething pots of self centeredness, self will; filled with self pity. … Continue reading

Add Some Color And Spice to Your Recovery – Kyczy Hawk

We are each of us unique and all of us similar. That is what makes recovery such a challenge and a blessing. I hear me in you, and yet, I process things in my own way. I am both an individual and a part of this clan. Ayurveda is the sister science to yoga. This ancient tradition also applies to people in modern society. It is the practice of restoring people to their personal original balance and constitution. Not all of us have the same constitution, but we each have something in common with one another. We are all forms of air, water, solids, vapor, chemicals, biology and so on. The ayurvedic practitioners have categorized all these into three main types, called “doshas”: Vata, Pitta and Kapha. There are no words into which to translate these- but they are easy enough to say. Here are some characteristics of each. (Please… Continue reading

“Body Hacks” For Long Term Recovery – By Kyczy Hawk

Body Hacks for Long Term Recovery: why it is so hard to be in the moment and tools to help you find NOW. Why do I feel like something is about to happen; all the time? I feel in a state of high alert, not as if something good is going to happen, but the “other shoe is going to drop” and the first shoe wasn’t that great. I scan for danger- not just the regular amount of be aware of your surroundings but an extreme sense of predicting disaster. My hypervigilance is not just about my own safety but for the potential discomfort and lack of safety for others. I want to make everything “all right” for everyone, and that means looking out for them and remaining ever vigilant. Why is my stomach on the verge of upset so much of the time? Indigestion, even bouts of nausea and… Continue reading

Recovery, Relapse, Triggers and Yoga: A Journey Into Healing Part Three, Recovery & Yoga

What do I mean by Recovery? Recovery is the process of being able to consistently abstain from a problematic substance or behavior, to correct control over behaviors that damage personal relationships, and to repair dysfunctional emotional responses. (Adapted from the American Society of Addiction Medicine’s definition of addiction.) In finding control over behaviors we also refer to realigning damaging thought patterns to be more sattvic, or harmonious and kind. Negative thoughts negatively impact our ability to grow and thrive. These negative samskara, habits of the mind, may result from being in a relationship with an addict as well as being in active addiction oneself. Recovery is a life-long journey as a person continually adapts to life’s challenges without resorting to the comfort of the addition or addictive process. Recovery is not a situational response to consequences from the addiction; it is a decision to abstain and refrain along with a… Continue reading

Recovery, Relapse, Triggers and Yoga; A Journey Into Healing Part Two – Kyczy Hawk

      Relapse and Triggers What is Relapse? Lapse describes a short “fall off the wagon,” and relapse describes a longer and perhaps more permanent “fall off the wagon.”. Hendershot et al. describe it this way: “a setback during the behavior changing process” (2011 www.biomedcentral.com/content/pdf/1747-597X-6-17/pdf) . If you re-engage with sugar or sex, codependent behavior or cocaine, tobacco or tranquilizers, this is a relapse and it happened not only because you are an addict, but because your resources against active addiction were not sufficient or in place. There are many reasons for a relapse – in addition to being an addict. The reasons are more correctly defined as precipitating emotional states rather than specific events. Just as trauma is defined as an event that overwhelms the system’s ability to recover from the accident, assault or event, so, too, does relapse occur due to the person’s depleted ability to apply… Continue reading