A Daily Reprieve From Drinking – Not From Life

So here I am not quite 34 years old, a mother of 2, wife, musician, Reiki Master and Alcoholic/Addict. Labels and more Labels. I have recently been diagnosed with Functional Neurological Disorder (FND) so I now also carry the label “disabled.” I came into the program of AA when I finally realised that I needed help and I had nearly ripped apart my family unit with some very stupid choices. We made a hasty move from our village to a nearby town. I was still drinking but it turned out to be one of my better decisions despite it being a pretty terrible time for us. The outside world knew nothing of my addiction. I knew nothing of my addiction – but my husband knew. I blamed depression and anxiety. Also drinking was normal, everyone I knew was a drinker. I worked as a musician playing in pubs, after gig… Continue reading

Scribble, Paint, Dance – By Nicola O’Hanlon

“Words are sacred, we must use them wisely….they are a gift of God.” – Burton Pretty-On-Top I was introduced to this quote when I left Rehab. I was asked to pick a page from a book we read from every day, so randomly I flicked the pages, and stopped on the page that contained this quote. Little did I realize how significant and perfect this quote would become. I had no idea, that in a very short time, words would become the catalyst for developing my future career and for uncovering a deeper sense of self that I had forgotten even existed. Yes I am a writer. I’ve wanted to call myself that since I was an itty bitty girl. Even when I was that itty bitty girl, I always had something to say.  So I said it. Loud and proud and with passion. However, the things I said didn’t… Continue reading