Some as precious and spectacular

    as rubies

    some as ominous and treacherous

    as fools gold

    whether dark or light

    each sticks to our bones

    and falsifies our essence.

    Some sparkle in fantastic splendour

    memories of stolen moments

    of joy, passion, mischief.

    Afraid to let them escape from our depths

    in case the feeling ends

    in case it wasn’t true

    caressing them

    like a twin flame

    we nurture what is only ours to know

    what seems sacred.

    Yet horror lurks there still,

    you drink it down

    try to poison it.

    Its ugliness wants to stare you in the face

    it screams it bites it hurts

    and tries to smother you

    and you wreathe in anguish

    as it refuses to give you peace

    moulding you with its fear

    enforcing its identity upon you

    it snuffs out the light

    bringing you to the brink of insanity.

    So thickly are you covered by its skin

    nobody has ever seen you.

    But you cannot continue to cry out

    for mercy

    or implore the Creator for healing

    and a quiet heart

    and expect the horror nor the splendour

    to stay stuck to your bones.

    Both will be expelled

    if you are true of heart

    the words will come

    and be placed at the feet of those

    who need to hear

    and be returned home.



    Nicola O'Hanlon

    About Nicola O'Hanlon

    Meet our Editor-In-Chief, Nicola O'Hanlon. She created this website, along with the help of the InTheRooms team in September 2015. Her work has been published in several recovery magazines, including Recovery Today, In Recovery Magazine,, Psychology Today and Reach Out Recovery to name but a few. She has also had her work published in two Feminist anthologies and a book of personal recovery stories. Born and raised in Wexford, Ireland she still lives there with her two children, Christopher and Jessica. Her background is in healing through Massage Therapy, Reflexology and Sechiem Energy Healer. She has combined her professional and life experience and now coaches women on how to empower themselves. She runs the Womens Wisdom Healing Circle meeting, on every Sunday (Noon est 5pm UK & Ireland), which is a non program specific gathering of women seeking support, encouragement and healing. Already an expert on how not to live life she is a constant seeker of new and better ways of being. Nature is her Higher Power and she believes in magic, crystals and blames the phases of the moon for her multiple personalities.
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    1. Very deep and beautiful. Thank you!

    2. you wrote that????? WOW! GORGEOUS

    3. if only u new how real your words are to me
      To scared to tell the truth as ive learnt in the past your truth only brings retribution and condemnation ……..
      So how do u escape its thick coat covering you??????
      Sometimes death seems my only escape from its creeping tentacles smothering me….

      • Hi Pam. For me I had to become completely independent, go through deep therapy and self-exploration – through working on myself I came to realise that I matter, and the truth became a natural part of my being. When you trust yourself, when you can take care of yourself then the truth is not a threat to you, but only to those who tell lies. That is my experience. I really hope you find your way to peace.

    4. “So thickly are you covered by its skin nobody has ever seen you.” Beautiful. Time to be seen and known, to let go of the cocoon that suffocates as it protects.

    5. Ahhh, I knew it! You ARE a bard.

    6. So deep and profound. Thank you for sharing your gift!

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