What Am I Looking For? – By Tsgoyna Tanzman

“What am I looking for?”…. ….I asked myself as I stood before the open refrigerator door. My brain was on multi-tasking steroids, running a thousand thoughts of what I had to do, who I had to talk to and I stood there clueless. I had arrived at a place I knew I was meant to be, but, “What was I looking for?” “What am I looking for?” This is a resourceful question to ask your brain, especially by saying it aloud.  The brain’s life purpose is to solve the questions/problems. Ask it the right question and it gets to work…. AHHHH LIMES! That’s what I needed from the refrigerator. My clients are always asking What Am I looking for?   This bigger all-encompassing life question seems to carry a heavier feeling. Yearning. Longing.  Maybe frustration and despair. We are always asking, “What am I looking for?” because as long as we are alive and evolving, we… Continue reading

What Will You Magnify – By Tsgoyna Tanzman

“You didn’t know me when I was hot”……I overheard a mother say to her daughter in the dressing room. A pretty typical conversation girls and women have when looking in the mirror, right? “Oh God, I hate my stomach. I have so much cellulite. My thighs are huge. My legs are like shriveled chickens. My butt’s too small. I’m a fat pig. My muffin top is gross.” I know this dialect of body shaming. I was an expert at it. My words turned to actions when I began practicing bulimia. For the solid years my words, thoughts, feelings and actions led me down a dark road of self-hate and physical abuse. I was the sole perpetrator. I was what you might call a “functional” bulimic. Functioning, happy and apparently okay on the outside, but hateful and condemning in my private hours of self-loathing. I did not suffer the extremes –  ingesting massive quantities… Continue reading