Drinking: A Love Story – Giving Over By Jackie S

One of the very worst things associated with alcoholism is lack of self-esteem. While this seems to be more prevalent for women, it affects people of both sexes.  So often we hear people say that they always felt that they were less than. It is that feeling of not being good enough that led Caroline Knapp to the next chapter of her book. In this chapter, she talks about clinging to relationships, fear of being alone and the depths that we will go to pursue a phantom relationship. It took me longer than I expected to put pen to paper on this topic. Those who have been reading all along know enough of my story to know that I lived in a dysfunctional relationship for many years. But it wasn’t until I read this chapter with my reading buddy that I really began to understand that this insanity was not… Continue reading

What Friday In Recovery Looks Like.

On this particular day, my recovered life looks like this. I’m sitting on my living room couch working (writing this), still wearing my pj’s and flip flops at 11am. I drove my daughter to school like this after getting her ready for Halloween dress up day. I have an abandoned kitten by my side that my sister found yesterday and since we are “cat people”, we of course adopted it. I’ve become its surrogate mother, or according to my children – grandmother. We now have four cats which is slightly unmanageable, but sometimes having a conscience can make life that way. I’ll get him (we think it’s a him) checked out at the vets later and get advice on how to care for a kitten too young to be away from its mother. The rain is pouring down outside. There’s towels and underwear on the washing line, dripping wet, because… Continue reading