Holiday Depletion or Restoration; Finding a Balance – Kyczy Hawk

The holidays are coming! The holidays are coming! These words can strike anguish and fear, or excitement and anticipation. Or all of the above.  There can be feelings of gratitude and generosity, grief, guilt or anger. My childhood, my memories and my dreams can color my hopes for the upcoming six weeks. It takes attention and intention to avoid depleting my energy in frenetic preparation and to find moments to restore my mind, body and spirit to sanity. Yoga, meditation and breathwork help immeasurably to help me identify feelings of exasperation, excess and exhaustion. Any one of these, and any two together, much less three throw me out of balance and into a dangerous condition of pre-relapse mode. This is where I lose my allegiance to my recovery and let myself become emotionally intoxicated. When that happens I act in ways I used to behave, and lose my ethics, morals… Continue reading

Yoga to Combat Depression – Kyczy Hawk

““Yoga gives us an active role in healing. And by slowing down mental chatter through breath work, it helps facilitate self-acceptance,”  – Yoga International What a lovely promise. Depression hurts so much it would be wonderful for there to be a simple answer to healing and avoiding it. Simple but not easy is what we learn in the rooms of recovery. Self-care and self-acceptance sound straight forward, but the effort is overwhelming if you start the process when you are deep in depression. A key is practice. Three actions to help with depression: Practice self-care for prevention Return to self-care before an emotional “emergency” Use three forms – so you can have them to choose from (anytime and anywhere) Breath Meditation Hatha – pose or asana practice Addiction and a familiarity with depression often go hand in hand. Some say addiction is a process of “self-medication” for symptoms of anxiety,… Continue reading

“Otheration” – Attachment To What Others Think

Before I started drinking and using, before my mom’s drinking had become the huge issue it turned out to be, before I fell in love with addict after addict I was emotionally bound to others.  It is appropriate as a baby, as a child. We learn to smile by being smiled at, how to laugh by finding things funny, to cry with a sad face in front of us. We become social by socializing ourselves to the people and situations around us. But at some point we are intended to explore and become familiar with our own feelings, from the inside out. It took years in recovery for me to find that ability. Growing up I learned to give up at games so that others would not experience the pain of losing, to behave in impeccable ways so that no one would have to be angry with or critical of… Continue reading

The Breath Is The Bridge

Right now, before you start reading, take a moment to breathe, with attention, three or four times.  These deep breaths come from a soft abdomen and an expandable chest. In and out through the nose – or in the nose and out the mouth.  Not to be too concerned about a “right way”.  Just breathe. Become aware of where you are sitting, how your body feels then close your eyes and breathe. Welcome back! How do you feel now? A slow deep breath resets the nervous system, calming the mind and the body.  A shallow breath can signal stress or alert the brain and body to impending danger.  Consciously utilizing the breath to a slower deeper pace can signal your system that you are safe. What does breathing have to do with recovery? Everything.  A shallow breath, a clenched chest and heart, an adrenaline infused system is reactive.  In my… Continue reading